crash.

there was an accident nearby my house. the only thing in sight was this car sandwiched in the drain. few minutes before heard sirens. pray for mercy.

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was suppose to play futsol at 1am. fucktard cancelled leaving me squad of 'fancy' footballers bored and squandering about. being such sad losers we are. 'cock' talking started and a whole lotta shits came out. then outta the blue, the topic of relationships came out. turns out that most of us lads are fucking single and we've been fucking single for fucking too long. perhaps?

random flirts and sex do not count as a relationship. those count as hook, line and sinker. haha jk.

so here we are, the 3 of us bachelors. all good lookin, suffers from slight financial problem but all supposedoffly, qualify to have a girlfriend. so wtf was wrong?

*gives out a loud grunt*
* long moment of silence*

me: its them i tell ya. fucking females.
rest : yeaaaa.. damn bitches dont kno what their missin..

*long pause again*

mecousin : tell ya wat lads, today is the 20th november 2004. how about we make a bet who can get into a relationship before new years.
me : your fucking crazy. i aint that smooth no more bitch.
mecousin : impossible is nothing. to top it off. by new years, those who are still single. will have to selfdeclare that their a wanker.
me : wanker huh? we'll see how it goes.

so now i;ve gotta get into a relationship before newyears. impossible. perhaps. hrm. i dont know.

mecousin : heh actually this aint just a bet. its actually to eliminate our fucking sad pathetic relationship status. you singled out wankers! that includes me too.. unfortunately. sob.

a month to go. wanker or not. doesnt matter much to me. not gonna be a desperate lad. no victims this time.

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so i browsed my phonebook to discover that. i actually havent been having good relations with people. as in i rarely keep tabs on em. heh. gotta work on that during the hols. this made me think, what else do i do subconsciencely.

ironically it turns out that, i'm a family man. i'm mostly happy when i'm around my family. ee mun used to say that i am conservative. guess thats true only on particular aspects. a bad side of me which hasnt left me yet is my grudge. fuck can i hold a grudge on somone. i cant take cancellations or last minute screwups. i get pissed real fast. as in, even the simplest thing can annoy the fucking crap outta me. voice,facial expression even text messaging. if i'm pissed, my face shows it all but i'll deny that i am.

realized also a few other things. how easily friends destroy their future by doing stupid things. most of em by drugs and girls. either your a fucking drug-abusing fucktard. or a dumb ass mofo who kno shit abt relationships that you get your fucking ass in trouble 24/7. wake up knuckleheads. you peep are still young and fuckign studying. dont be over love till love turns to obsession. dont fuck around without knowing what burden you might cause. it just about you. its also about the people around you. the shit you cause, other people migh be a victim from it too.

everything aint about money. morons. you'll earn quadruple when ur older and hav got a proper job. quit sucking on your damn parents money. proven scientificly and rationally that whining doesnt increase financial status.

yada yada yada. shit wtf have i been crapping. oh well.

all i know, i'm glad of what i've become today. though i screwed up many many times. most of em were from outer influence. i choose who i want to become.


'those which do not kill you, will only make you stronger.'