you turn me on

gotcha!

the title has nothing to do with this post. booooo ! haha.

anyways. its 3 am. fuckin bored. just for fucks, heres a few surveys.

why? cus im fuckin bored and dont feel like typing anything moving. haha! ;p

Survey 1:

1. What is your second favorite song?
i dont even have a favorite one. oh well, if i had to choose; toploader - dancing in the moonlight. cus it makes me happy!

2. Do people ever tell you that you are cute?
hurm.. its either that or lame. like wtf rite?

3. When was the last time you ate peanut butter?
mmm sounds good. i'll eat that after this. last time wud be a month back?

4. What brand is your cell phone?
cheap ass nokia.

5. What were the last three CD's you bought?
web editor, ccna, farewell dinner cd. dull rite?

6. When was the last time you went to the mall?
last week ? lookin for flipflops

7. How many Tiffany & Co. items do you own?
i aint gay aight. get that.

8. Are you happy?
define happy.

9. What is the last sport you participated in?
futsal which busted my knee. mofucker !

10. Who is a celeb girl that you think is hot?
jessica alba ! whoa sizzlin yo.

11. Is your hair up or down right now?
waxed up.

12. Is there a song stuck in your head right now?
kindof

13. If so what is it?
killing pussy cat.

14. What's for dinner?
nasi la. what summore

15. Do you hate losing?
bloody hell yes. imma sore loser. i cant deal with losing.. get that.

16. What was the last item you ordered online?
jacket. lovin the courier service in uk!

17. What about the last item you purchased in a
store?
solution.

18. Who are you IMing with right now?
non

19. Are you a xanga or myspace person?
myspace. but i read xanga too.

20. Who's your daddy!?!
defineatly not u.

21. What was the last veggie you ate?
a whole lotta green stuff.

22. What are you unhappy about right now?
when people dont return ur calls.. arghh!

23. Are you scared of the dark?
nope.

24. When is your birthday?
24th nov

25. Do you have alot of friends?
i wouldnt say alot, sufficient yes, but i wouldnt mind havin more. ;)

26. What was the last song you downloaded?
JT - Sexyback yo! JT rox! haha

27. What brand is the shirt that you are wearing?
to sleep? anything comfy dude. why the branding?

28. Clothes or shoes?
depends?

29. Who all is in your house right now?
the whole family is in.

30. Do you say 'your mom!' alot?
wtf?

31. What is your favorite number/s?
17 dont ask.

32. Who was/were the last person/s you laughed
with?
my posse's ! reprezent!

33. Why did you laugh with these person/s?
its called 'cerite kote' or 'crap talk'

34. Did you play with cards as a kid?
who didnt?

35. Do you like Wendy's food?
i licked wendy clean. haha.

36. Do you like eating a lot?
explains the flabs now doesnt it?

37. Are you the tall one, the short one, or normal?
average here. short in uk.

38. Do you have a digital camera?
canon s3is .. my baby

39. What is your eye color?
dark brown

40. Are you into football?
hooligans !

Survey 2:

What do you like to be called?
suff


Gender?
male. duh


What would your parents have named you if you'd been the opposite gender?
dunno? sufya mebbe?

If you had a superpower, what would it be?
i wanna fly !


What's your favorite scary movie?
stephen king's - it! fucking clown. couldnt sleep for days when i was 8.

Not-so-scary movie?
scary movie? haha.


Scary movies: Watch them in the dark or with the lights on?
lights off; air conditioned; surround sound; special someone next to ya. :P


Favorite flavor of ice cream?
cookie dough n cream !


Ice cream: With toppings or plain?
plains good.


What do you like on your pizza?
lotsa cheese and sause with lots of toppings

Favorite TV show?
csi's good. prison break's kewl.


Favorite TV show when you were a kid?
transformers!


If you could own an exotic pet, what would it be?
chameleon.


If your life was a movie, what would be the theme
song?
i cant remember the title but the chorus went along like ' we were meant live for so much moree..'


What is/was your best subject in school?
science n math?


Worst?
history is SHITE. so was BM

Is the glass half-full or half-empty?
empty. bleh.


What's in the glass?
coke. cus i'm drinkin it now ;p


Be honest. Ever had a crush on a fictional
character?
nah. too fictional.


It's dark. You're alone. You hear a noise. Do you
investigate?
depends. if its a lil dodgy i'll just ignore it.

Why?
lets just say, there are things better left unnoticed

Do you have any weird talents?
must i have one?

Would you rather go clubbing or stay at home with
i'm up for anything these days.


How do you feel about labels?
like em, but not a necessity.

Would you rather ride a horse or an elephant?
ugh u sick fuck.


Do you fear clowns?
i think their groovy.


How do you feel about people ending their sentences with prepositions?
so?

Harry Potter or Lord of the Rings?
LOTR for the better costumes.


Do you read the last page of a book before you read the rest of the book?
if u mean synopsis yes. if not then no.

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hah! hope u enjoyed that! .. wtv.. bye !

bugger.

midway playing footie. a stupid cunt accidentally knocked my knee giving it a nice lil shake. suddenly an old sensation came about.

oh fuck.

i busted my knee again.

now it hurts like a real mother fucker.

godamnit i felt like giving the son of a bitch a nice smacking, not the first time the fucker did this.

now this is bad, gotta make sure this shit doesnt happen in UK ..

rehab starts 2 days from now. partially i think cus i havent been doing much of any excercising lately. thus i reckon em joints got rusty or sum shit like that.

better save my knee before i suddenly get like ACL injury or sumthing. now thats shit.

lates.

a silent moment

there are time when u just feel like talking. but things just dont come out.

cant put it in words..

dont know where to start..

by the time u find the right words, the moment has passed. ending up u keeping things to urself again.

hurm.

i guess i've grown too used to this feeling that i'm complacent wit it..

hate this.

last few days

tick tick.

its down to my last 2 weeks here in msia already. which i gues could be considered the last few days i have left.. =/ (haha the expression look so similiar to the pic)

i just cleared some stuff from my room. guess i'll be doing that for a bit, well till i leave. my bags already full. shit! my suits not in yet and some other stuff. but i guess i just have to stuff them ..

i really hope that heathrow doesnt impliment some stupid rule sayin no backpacks with laptops allowed. if thats so, then i'm so fucking screwed. my backpacks gonna be packed with my laptop, documents and camera. which i totally cant stuff into my checkin back already.

*cross ur fingers ey

went to see my ol boss for the past 2 days .. at first just to ask for a reference letter. ended up me doing some work.. helpin the ol fella out with clearing his store for 2 days straight. hella work man.

absolutely knackered.

but i got a free shoe for it. theehee!

my own nike free 7.0

yay. now i have a proper running shoe.

goin for lunch now. lates.

philosophical rubbish

so as we try with all our might to control our lives, to mold it as how we please. its still never in our grasp. we trip at our own legs cus of greed, we are imperfect and will always be. with the clock ticking at our every moves. we stop only when we stumble, oblivious to our surroundings when things are fine.

fools we are.

will we ever be differ?

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im sick, well i have a flu .. it sucks.

least now i can actually taste my food. 2 days back it all tasted the same with the bad sore throat i had. now im just stuck to constant sniffing.

helped out my previous boss earlier today. after 2 months of not working, bugger it suddenly feels so tiring to work. tomorrow i gotta wake up at 6.30am .. cus we didnt have time to finish what we started today. aiks.

something feels missing.

but my ego tells me its nothing.

pretentious bastard i am.

for what might happen next i've already lament.

sigh.

why is it so hard.

hurm

off to kuantan for a meeting.

feel so lazy to drive at 6am just to reach there in time.. summore have to listen to some dato talk cock. bleh.

lalala.

bye.

eyebags for breakfast

its been a hectic weekend for me. its already monday but i can still feel the fatigue. ugh. so i'll just post a short one for now..

friday:
went for FHM's 100 sexiest women party. it was alrite, well to be frank it shud be called Sausage fest 06' instead. just too many guys.. not to mention half of them think their bod's like buff or sumthign but the sad truth is their fats, not even close to muscles.

pfft!

but it was alrite. i had VIP passes. free gifts include some new condom by durex. ;p

later i headed down to fiona's(mark's gf) crib for mark's suprise bday.

itwas alrite. i was really knackered by the time i got home.

but...

saturday:
rehearsal for convo was suppose to be at 8.30am. but for some reason, my dad wanted to be there early. thus he woke me up fucking early, so i only slept for 1 hour since mark's party.

brilliant.

make matters worst. the pamplet said to be dressed in a shirt and shoes. so i opt for shirt and jeans with sneakers.

lil did i know that the self potrait picture was to be taken on the same day.

like wtf rite? potrait picture first before the ceremony.

anyways. i only found out abt it when i got there from my friend. thus lotsa calls had to be made, thank god my cousin was free, he dropped off my suit for me. my credit was totally depleted by then.

got home only at 5pm. had a short drinks with friends, dinner and slept early.

sunday:
convo day, ceremony was a drag i tell ya. but after that took tonnes of pictures. kay i'm exagerating only abt 40 ish. ;p haha.

went to 1u for a quick movie; dragon tiger gate.

fuiyo i tell you the martial arts moves are killer man. but i was knackered, so i dozed off at the final part. ;(

had migrain. decided to skipped watching footie at hartamas. watched at home the 2nd half. then slept.

anyways.


more pictures of my convo at; here

havent post up the rest of the pictures. lazy ..

lates.

eyebags for breakfast

its been a hectic weekend for me. its already monday but i can still feel the fatigue. ugh. so i'll just post a short one for now..

friday:
went for FHM's 100 sexiest women party. it was alrite, well to be frank it shud be called Sausage fest 06' instead. just too many guys.. not to mention half of them think their bod's like buff or sumthign but the sad truth is their fats, not even close to muscles.

pfft!

but it was alrite. i had VIP passes. free gifts include some new condom by durex. ;p

later i headed down to fiona's(mark's gf) crib for mark's suprise bday.

itwas alrite. i was really knackered by the time i got home.

but...

saturday:
rehearsal for convo was suppose to be at 8.30am. but for some reason, my dad wanted to be there early. thus he woke me up fucking early, so i only slept for 1 hour since mark's party.

brilliant.

make matters worst. the pamplet said to be dressed in a shirt and shoes. so i opt for shirt and jeans with sneakers.

lil did i know that the self potrait picture was to be taken on the same day.

like wtf rite? potrait picture first before the ceremony.

anyways. i only found out abt it when i got there from my friend. thus lotsa calls had to be made, thank god my cousin was free, he dropped off my suit for me. my credit was totally depleted by then.

got home only at 5pm. had a short drinks with friends, dinner and slept early. sunday:
convo day, ceremony was a drag i tell ya. but after that took tonnes of pictures. kay i'm exagerating only abt 40 ish. ;p haha.

went to 1u for a quick movie; dragon tiger gate.

fuiyo i tell you the martial arts moves are killer man. but i was knackered, so i dozed off at the final part. ;(

had migrain. decided to skipped watching footie at hartamas. watched at home the 2nd half. then slept.

anyways.


more pictures of my convo at; here

havent post up the rest of the pictures. lazy ..

lates.

dadodee

i bet u guys are sick of hearing it, bored of reading it and saying 'bloody hell just fucking go already' everytime i post something about uk. haha.

whilst some have been conned into thinking i've already left (*cough tl) , sad fact is; i'm still here.

but no worries. i'll be leaving soon.

in about ... 22 days more !

so put a sock innit. cus by then; no more stupid rants. but more towards boring uni life rants! haha which is worst ! ;p

anyways. just to show proof that i really am good to go.


sorry but i think i look like shite in there. aaaanyways..

i just love going through my passport. the stamps shows how lucky i am to actually travel .. :) though the one i'm using now is a new passport. in 1 year i've already been to quite a few places.

mmmmm..

last year was singapore, england, italy aaandd australia!

moree to come ! ;)

cheers!

tonite sunway lagoon fhm party!! it better be good and not some fuckign sausage fest.

back

i was back at my hometown for the past few days.

tell ya one thing.. its only in my hometown do people eat rice for breakfast, lunch and dinner!!

i tell ya i was so stuffed for the past few days, i'm scared to weight myself. haha.

oh and only kelantan has the best evahhhh nasi campur. omfg. and its sooo fucking cheap too!! weee!

anywas. back home now. less food. more exercises. convo's this sunday. gotta look good for it.

lates.

late nite

i feel restless eventhough i know i gotta wake up early tomorrow to do my visa.

i was told to hold myself together by a close friend.

it was only a momentarily thing. im stronger than this.

yet i often feel so small when this occurs.

nothing beats like BBC 1 xtra when ur bored at night.

nigga wanna die ! ;p

lates.

life's perfect lil twists

last night i had time to think abt life and its funny lil twists..

guess this happens alot with me when i cant sleep at night. bugger.

twist.

i notice that i do my self-observation awfully alot in the past and i appologise for the constant rambling as i write abt them so often as reminders of who i am for future reference.

i got ditched last night by my friends cus there was a missunderstanding about time. one fella's fault but hey, i didnt really mind. i needed to get some fresh air anyways. which later when i got home; i couldnt sleep and thought abt .. well almost everything.

counting down to the days i have left in malaysia .. 30 days to be exact.

for those of you who havent been updated. my flight is on the 3rd September .. NOT 31st August. there was some trouble with the travelt agent. thus the delay. mind u my classes start on the 4th september. so it'll be a rush .. anyways. where was i..

studies;
i like engineering and i will graduate as an engineer. its a goal which i had since young and i will not stop till i achieve that title. but i cant promise u that i'll work as a fulltime engineer. perhaps my job lies sumwhere else. least i ensure i graduate as an engineer. honestly speaking; given my background, i'm suprised i even made it this far. whatever it is; i'm happy i chose engineering, i wouldnt of picked another major ..

job;
from what i see, i'm a very goal oriented person. set a target and hit it. perhaps i'm not into a day in day out type of job where u do the same shit different day. but then again, i cant take an unstable lifestyle for long. as from the most recent one .. i seem to suffer from fatigue which affected my performance really badly. i think getting ajob wouldnt be that hard.. i enjoy a challenge. hurm.. full time engineer, researcher or even an event manager. i'll work thru it. no worries here.

money;
i had fun thinking abt this one. havent we all had that talk .. 'imagine if u had 1 million dollars!' well, yesterday i found out. if i had that much money. i wouldnt really like it that much. cus of the drastic change it'll bring to my life. at this age; i can honestly say it aint all about money. i'm happy with what i have.

if i had unlimited cash; i'd be stripped of honest friends, grow really fat from overeating, end up doing really stupid things, lose on a major goal in life, forget/wouldnt know abt the average people, snobbish and not realize it .. till a point i'd hate me if i met me somewhere.

maybe im a very practical person. i wont buy if i dont really need it.

love;
recently i got a shocked of my life when i was accused of being 'desperate' by a friend of mine. if wanting to be loved by another is desperate, then i am guilty of being so. i believe every man,women and child wants to be loved. and if doing so is a desperate act. thus, i'm lost for words. whats wrong with wanting affection from another? given my history in relationships, well i dont think i deserve that label. maybe others see me differently, i guess i wouldnt know .. but again, that label came from a friend who's obsessive abt his girlfriend and cuts his wrist almost everytime some arguement happens.

so who's the one with the real issue's ere?

i know i jump thru hoops for those i love. time and time again has proven that i often take too many leaps of faith when it comes to relationships.

who knows.

friends and family;
often i try to balance time i spend with my friends and my family. but it can never be enough. its just always one sided. i know family comes first before friends but there are just times when talking to friends feel much better. my friends have come and go .. its still hard to find really really close friends. guess i also keep my guard up when choosing friends.

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anyways. its kinda late. gotta do some stuff.. lates. sorry for the assy post