byebye

today is the last day of college. everyone else is sitting for exam's right now. while my paper is at night. bfah. i tried studying earlier on, but kept dozing off instead. its not to say that the subject is soo complicated that my mind haywire's and turns into marshmellow. its the same stuff which i studied for my midterms.

i came back here on sunday night with the intentions to study, finish up work and also spend some o this last few days with the lads. maybe grab few photo's and such like what i always do each semester end. but alas, yesterday was such a waste .. cause i practically slept the whole friggin day. well minus afternoon which i did some practical work. i'm talking about waking up at 10.30am, do work till 2pm. sleep till 7pm, eat dinner, sleep again at almost 2am. i woke up at 11am this morning.

like i said, i do must of my sleeping in college. =/

mental note: study after this.

i think maybe the main reason for such weird relaxed behavior is cause i spent the weekend as though i was already on holidays. weekends without any stress nor worry is good. mmm.

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i weight myself the other day, just to take not how much i've lost over the month. finally understood why people are asking if i was taking drugs. i lost 5 kg's over 1 month. so to those who wanna know how i lost that much weight under such a short term. easy! just do the following;

diet : maximum of 2 meals per day, average of only 1 meal and on certain days, dont eat.
sleep: 5 hours average per day. with maximum of 8 and minimum of .. no sleep?
work: heres the good part. approximately 6-8 assignments and 8 exams back to back dateline's for a month!
sport: futsol 2 times a week.

as easy as that folks, i assure you. say goodbye to those flabs ! and hello to problematic health!

funky innit.

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i went on date the other day. typical movie and drink date. overall it went pretty good. but i gotta say, after not going on dates for i dunno almost a year? sad innit. it felt really funny. haha.

she was like, ' what ya wanna do now?'
me,' i dont know actually, i havent been going out during daytime in ages.'

then comes a moment of silence, we kept walking around till it got really pissing off.

me,' lets go have a drink or something, you hungry?'
she,' yea lets, where?'

another moment of silence, suffieaeee trying very very hard to think of a place.

we ended up at a place nearby her house. had small talks then i had to leave since cause for some reason my mom knew i was on a date and called me halfway through.. that women really knows how to kill off moods. bleh.

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i was suppose to work, promoting the new nokia 6680 starting this wednesday till sunday. i wanted the job alot since it'll help me out financial. perhaps even get me an extra 100 pounds for my trip to uk. but turns out that i didnt get the call, thus no job, no cash. fucketts.

was suppose to drive down to kuantan for a job with my mom next week, that was cancelled too. lastly, trip to dublin was over budgeted. so that was cancelled too. aie. i hate last minute cancellations.

now i have no plans for the last week and half of holiday in malaysia. everyone else seems to be having exams starting by next week. so that cuts the potential drinking sessions to half or maybe even quarter. oy this is turning out into a very boring last week before uk.

even the girl (codename: j), j has exams starting on the 6th. the fuck am i gonna do thenn? argh this seriously sucks.

ages.

i just noticed that, each time i'm at home i have a problem. i cant seem to sleep and eat properly. ironically, were talking about my home ere. in other words, house or sanctuary which i've spent most of my life in. the place which i discovered by first few pubic hairs and brought back my girlfriends for some 'comfort'. its becoming really annoying, that when i know i'm tired and in need of good sleep, i just cant seem to get any. i think the issue is that, my mindset is that when i'm home i can achieve much much more than just sleeping.

as for eating. couldnt u agree more than mom's cooking is always the best? well, i just dont seem to have the appetite to eat at home either, and its not like i eat outside. i just like .. dont eat. habit perhaps? sigh.

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i received good news from my sister earlier, saying that she has already bought my phone. yippie! 6630 ya'll! 3g capable and shiiiiitt! hahaha.

i'm pretty confused as to which uni should i visit during my trip to the UK, its really hard to decide. well i'd love to visit and enroll straight into the very best uni's. but with my modest grades, theres a higher chance for them not to take me. ;( so now i gotta decide.. a decision which i'm not even sure of the options. aiee..

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perhaps those of you who've met me recently would know that suffieaee has interests in a particular girl. well lately i've been talking to her more often. and i gotta say that i do have fancies for this one. i know its been almost a year since i've been any relationships. with my very own girlfriend or other people's. ;P

its not that i have a inferiority complex towards relationships, but perhaps i just wasnt ready yet. and now, i think i'm about ready to once again, venture into the realms of emotional torture and agonizing torment of a relationship.

i'm sure ya guys wanna know bits n pieces of this girl. ey.

well she's a year younger and i wouldnt say she's as hot as a super model. but the fact is, she's hot. haha. though i know i might be hoping for more than i'd get, but i am ready for the suffering to come. if somehow i do fail.. well that'll just mean either, ive turned into a green jizz of a monster or im turning gay. i hope its the green.

current problem which might occur now is that;

• i might not be able give her the full attention she wants
• i'm not rich
• she's not ready

but all i know is that, im willing to give as much as i can to please her. just as how i was willing to do for all my ex girlfriends. which is .. a lot ...

..

guess we'll just have to see what happens ..

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did u actually see me when u look at me?

its called freedom

its currently 9.06pm on a thursday night. if ya guys read the previous posts. its clear that the month of may has been a monstrous month of work and agonizing stress, both wanted and unwanted. but with great joy i'd like to say that. earlier this afternoon i've sat for my radio communication exam which is moreless the last hurdle before the great finish.

yea i do have another 2 more papers but both are religious studies and microN which is rather easy. ;)

this afternoon i finished my paper early, but i felt reluctant to leave the examination hall. instead i stayed back to rererere-check and also unwind with thoughts of what to do or what to come. still cant believe i'll be in europe for 3 weeks in less than 2 weeks time. thinking about it gives me the feeling of euphoria. the much deserved holiday has come finally. yayness.

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liverpool won the champions league this morning. i watched only the first half of it as i needed sleep cos i had exams duh. rather shocked with the results but non the less, proud of what their manager did. they were 3-0 down. believe that and they came back to equalize 3-3 and finished off ac-milan on penalties 3-2. miraculous stuff i tell ya, football.

currently wearing liverpool jersey too. ghahaha.

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yesterday i watched the last episode or episode 3 of starwars; revenge of the sith. overall i felt that they were rushing the story. the show was approximately 2 and a half hour but i felt if they made it 3 hours. nobody would've mind. watcha think?

how anakin became darth vader was also a slight let down. anakin was potrayed to be very very gullible and pussy in my words. come on, who turns over to the darkside over a women? watta wanker.

coincidentally i was studying on religious studies; womens rights in islam. haha. watta hell right?

anyways. lost for words at the moment. oh yea, will right about 3g in next post :) wait yea. cheers.

you never walk alone. ~ liverpool

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flirt mode ON! ;p

sore

whilst i'd gladly whine abt how sore my body is from having hardcore sex with 10 women, that my body aches from every twist or movement of muscle due to kamasutra acts which i finished the whole 12 chapters. that'll be just plain bull. fact of the matter is .. i'm sick. fucken loserish ey.

i was jumping like a monkey while studying yesterday, till suddenly i felt a weird tingle feeling all over. which finally turned out to be a fever. make things worst, just when i have the extra money for regular lunchs and dinners. now i have a sorethroat. which means, no regular lunchs nor dinners. wargh. i hate being sick.

the running nose annoyance, the bitter tastebuds, the body ache's from just moving around, facial breakout. this sucks.

anyways. tomorrow's exam day. fuck that shite.

yesterday i watched kingdom of heaven. after much reviews and comments by felow friends. overall i'd say that the movie isnt up to par. well, in comparison with troy and gladiator that is. plus according to history, the story is waaaay differ from how they showed it. fucken lying scumbags.

perhaps troy had better fight scenes. my friend said, i agree. or maybe your just being too religiously biassed, another friend said. nahhh doubt so. me religious? OOKAYYYY..

fact is, a story about how a man who started off as a depressed blacksmith suddenly became a baron which led to him being the savior of a small town and lastly becoming the valiant knight who saves the day or moreless the city. just isnt my cuppa tea.

laughable moment:
the town of watchamacallit has been there for over 100 years, after being in the town for less than 5 minutes. balion suddenly gives an extraordinare idea. "lets build a well" . a duhh. come on, people back then werent that stupid, well i would hope not. then later in the next scene, you'd see farms all green and crops blooming. wow! talk about growth!

historically:
balion only knighted about 15 townsmen, and NOT the WHOLE town.
balion was the one who wanted negotiations. not salahuddin, he attempted thrice. only the third time did salahuddin accepted.
yep. salahuddin really did have a BIG ASS fucken army.

religiously:
it is sinful for non muslim's to say "assalamualaikum" to muslims. and also sinful for muslims to reply with "waalaikumsalam" to a non muslim.

nyeh.

bet u'd never expected suffieaee to be all so knowledgeable ey.

suck on ur toe you scurvy maggots. :P

lastly,

'this horse is not strong enough for me. you can take it'

how lamo is that mann.. wow. ur giving me a horse? yippiee! hip hip hoorayyy!

laters.

check it out.

fellow faggots and wankers.

how do you like my blinding red with passion layout.

ok actually, i'm too arsed to make my own layout. this layout i ripped off from the net. but who gives a shit anyways.

exams are on wednesday and what is suffieaee doing? changing layouts and enjoying cold drinks infront of the tele. excellent preparations wont you agree? well i only have 4 papers to sit. which i hope to score and achieve my rather modest gpa. since i slacked in my mid terms .. oh fuck hole. i wont be able to achieve a full 4.0 gpa like my friend is gonna get.

bloody fukcing wanker.

anyways. after the exams will be .. dum dum dummm.. HOLIDAYS LA MACHAA~!

and what holidays mean is .. parteyy la machaaa like theres no tomorrowwwww! alrite la tambii!

i'll be only here for like a week during my holidays. the rest of it will be in europe.

FUCKEN EUROPES MATE ! FUCKEN EUROPE!

anyways. tally hoe. time to go .. suck on ur toe .. while i fuck ur hoe and be ur foe :) cheers!

long post. busy ass may[day]

i've noticed that its been almost 20 days since i last updated my page. its not that i've grown tired or wary of blogging, but my life has took a lil turn on the more stressful side which has now led me to being almost without any time to breath. busy as hell is an understatement here.

previously, i ranted about how i just loved the weekend parties i had.

well, after that party. things suddenly were filled with ..

work.
to those of you who've had drinks/talked with me lately, i'm sure you'd heard me bitch about how inconsiderate are my lecturers. giving us last very fucking minute assignments with impossible datelines which is sandwhiched in between exams.

yep.

fucked up as hell.

anyways. since i'm just too arsed to rant abt my exams/work. heres a short version of what happened within the 20 days.

2nd may. tuesday
2 days after party heaven?, i had a test on Micro electronics N, dealing with microprocessors. boring stuff. but i think i managed to pull through with a Merit. *crosses fingers* slept for 4 hours only.

6th may. friday
was the deadline for my feasibility report for my final project. its actually just a plain report. but i'm only partially an expert on the technical part thus, another very late night. actually i stayed up for more than 48 hours that following day, not to mention playing an hour of futsal too.

7th may. saturday
my mom called me beautiful. considering i finally had some sleep. pfah.

10th may. tuesday
due date for my electronics assignment. another late late night researching and brain storming for analysis. 3 hours of sleep.

11th may. wednesday
malaysian studies exam. 3 hours of sleep? gotten the results back today. i's got a merit and a distinction. considered an okay effort.

12th may. thursday
viva for final project. 1 hour of sleep. circuit failed to work for god knows what reason. lecturer postponed viva for my group. thank god. public speaking was also postponed. yippieee! i finally had some good sleep that afternoon.

13th may. friday
came back early. pierced my ears. played some futsal in the afternoon. rested for tomorrow's tournament.

14th may. saturday
woke up early, rushed to college. picked up friends then headed to setapak for the competition. since my team was made just for having fun, we didnt manage to get into the semi's. extremely not my fault. fatigued, i drove to kl later after the tournament to get some components for my viva. drove back to college to drop some friends. came home, bathed then headed off again to play futsal for 2 hours. bathed. went to see ee mun, who was very stressed with work. came back home at 5 am. tried doing work till 6.30am. slept off.

15th may. sunday.
rushed back to college to finish yet another assignment. postponed.

17th may. tuesday
viva. circuit still didnt work properly when tested. ironically, worked perrrfectly during viva. wooooptidoooo! gotten good nods from lecturers. had public speaking, i scored a 94/100. though my friend gotten 100/100. i was voted the most influential speaker, plus my lecturer hated my guts. so getting 94 was a yippiee too.

not forgetting. for the second time in my life, my lecturer made a remark questioning if i was taking drugs for my loss of weight. first time was in high school.

no i am not taking drugs.

im lacking of sleep. terribly. with no money for regular meals too.

that should explain the racoon like expression. ;P

18th may. wednesday.
i have 5 dollars left to last me till sunday. looks like i'll be eating imaginary food for a while.. yet again!

left ear deaf.

its been a wicked weekend with 1 more day to go, shit i cant stop enjoying myself. though my assignments is due within next week with 2 papers sandwiched in between. i should be fucking studying. wattahell..

guess this is what happens when you suddenly unleash yourself ey. heh good stuff. fucking wicked.

updates. i'll start from a slow tempo. ;)

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met up with a couple o me old classmates of form 5 on friday night. i dont know, maybe its just me but whenever these old school reunion happens the reminescence of old memories just seem to sweep you off your feet with the absolute nonsense antics of the old days. well i didnt actually met up with the whole class, it was a small gathering for an occasion to be precise. it was rebecca's birthday. which overall was just.. nevermind..

anyways, the old gang met up. with randall, kok ming, tai loon and me sitting on one side of the table. sometimes it suprises me that each time i meet up with the whole gang. we just cant stop laughing, gees. i'd be having jaw pains when i reach home everytime..

pretty much like what kok ming said, everyone has changed since then. but guys, if ur reading this. i'd like to pay tribute to you guys. to the people who made the last 2 years of high school worth while.. wouldnt be doing what i am right now if it werent for you guys man .. fo real.

cheers dudes.

though we constantly made stupid jokes and laughed our way through the years of high school. we had our fairshare of gettin lectured, falling asleep in class, detention, books thrown out the window and fucking loads more. still owe it to you guys for my *ahem* excellent results. for that much, i'll be sure to keep tabs on you guys for years to come.

kok ming; pervert of an animator. u'd better be coming to UK with me u jackass.
randall; lame excuse for a portugese. we'll play footie together till we grow old and wrinkly ey.
tai loong; face of horror. get a girlfriend u fag. for god sake, just ask her dammit!

oh yea.

rebecca if ur reading this, erm.. no tribute to you. bwahhahaa.

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saturday as always are fun days. why? because its the bloody weekend(!!) and i have shit loads of work to do. so anyways, i was suppose to be doing my work. which i did partially(fieldwork/research) then i got bored.

but i did ran some tests on my wireless camera. for the second time, this time it was a bit funny walking around my cousin's condo holding a wireless camera while entering the lift with the hawt neighbor. my cousin was watching on the tele, he called my phone which i reluctantly answered. his first words, "fucker, in the lift with the hawt chick er.." i stealthily aimed the camera high and low, giving him a nice rear view of her. damn.

haha.

the sun set, thus the creatures of the night slowly emerge from their habitat(?) because its time to party!

Thirst final ; Roger Sanchez.

i went there with my cousin, ajim, aiman. met up with a few others there. we reached there sepang early(10pm) which we were quite suprised by the actual number of people there. say 70? 100?. yea quite a shocker rite.

soon enough the crowd slowly came about, which was the start of the thirst dj competition. Dj learn was first the perform. his mix was absolutely fucking massiveee, introduction with breakbeats to hard house to a few more. he mixed a couple o genre's which he did very well. the crowd was pumped.

altered something(image?) was next to take the stage. consisting of 3 people(1 dj, 1 vj, 1 effects) they made their own track but it was so dull and flat. they sucked.

ironic part was, Dj learn didnt win. i guess the winning points were given to altered image because they made their own songs. seriously man, what a bummer. i felt that dj learn deserved the win. steve lawler was next to perform. his mix was okay. but for the first 1 hour it was really slow and since most of us were expecting a very high tempo mix, abit slow.

before long, roger sanchez took the stage with his live crew from new york. he performed a live set which was absolutely fucking awesome. serious wicked stuff. one of the crew was a this blonde girl(cant remember name). i know for a fact that her tits were fake cause their soo huge. she was jumpin and dancing and sweating(toing toing! wet wet. mmmm..) sight for sore eyes. theheheh..

after a few tracks the crew left and roger sanchez took the solo. his tracks were wicked. but too bad for those 'ravers' who came to shuffle. they just stood there. unable to dance to the beat. i asked one of em,

' dude why arent u dancing man..'
' his playing house'
' er ya dude, its roger sanchez. king of house?'
' oh '

downside of being a shuffler i guess.

okay. heres the bad part.

for the first time, in my whole clubbing years.. i actually got too tired to dance.. would you fucking believe that. i danced to tiesto for almost 5 hours non stop, no problem. i went to genting and danced for god knows how long, no problem. yesterday, i started at 10.30 and by 2.30 i was jelly legged. i'm feel ashamed. i got beaten by roger sanchez. fucker.

but yesterday was fucking hot. with the crowd packed in, didnt do much help to the ventilation. maybe thats why i lost..

fucker..