another chapter of my life is coming to an end.. soon it'll start a new one with more scandals, conspiracies, bad humour and pictures with bad lighting.
enjoy. i tried uploading some pictures but somehow things arent going my way. bastard. lates
its only been 5 dayyysss..
im just lazy to update..
i even have pictures too.. but i'm lazy ;p
long day ahead! toodles !
i took a gamble.
to least try or live a life of regret and pondering of what if's.
i took the plunge. i wanted it, i was selfish. i thought only of myself and not of the consequences that might come with it.
life took its turn and i learnt the hard way that life will never be how u want it to be, cus u cant control life.
a year ago i was struggling to cope with life's other matters.
a month ago i was confused if i was making the right decisions abt this plunge. there was so much on my mind; i even had a small accident. shit it feels so stupid now.
a week ago i was sure; i wanted u ; i was selfish ; i was stubborn ; but i still wanted u real bad. thinking maybe there was a chance..
yesterday i thought long and hard. i didnt wanna hurt u. but i kno i couldnt trust myself.
few hours ago i was wit u. i would do anything just to be with u a while more. but i know tat wasnt possible. u had to go.
right now i know that i'm a selfish prick with shit for rationality.
tomorrow i know i'll be thinking of u the whole day, i kno i should stop.. i tried i just cant.
a week from now i'd be busy packing and visiting far relatives. still thinkin abt u, wanting to see u..
a month from now i'd be swamped with final packing, hoping that i get to see u before i leave.. i hate just thinking abt it..
a year from now, i'd remember these few days.. i'd remember u.. i wont forget u..
sigh.
im sorry.
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39 days left.
i went for my medical checkup yesterday at a nearby hospital..
its kinda funny, just doing tests does at times give u a lil tingly feel that there might be something wrong wit u.. like the urine test, blood test and x-rays.
i'd drop dead on the spot if suddenly the nurse said i was positive for drugs or even worst aids. like wtf? but i dont do drugs nor have i shagged anyone for a long time!
haha.
anyways. everything was fine and dandy .. cept the physical was abit creepy cus the doctor kept on touching here and there. i seem to remember that the last time i did this, it wasnt so touchie.
eeee..
then it happened;
i requested a meningitis vaccine jab as an extra since the Uni i'm going said it'll be a plus. so as i finished the test, the nurse gave me the paper asking me to go to the pharmacy to get my jab. so i did that in a jiffy. then while getting the jab, suddenly the nurse asked me. how come i requested this jab..
'oh.. the uni mentioned something abt it.. so i tot might as well i get it here.. meningitis..'
:)
then the nurse's face changed abit.
'meningitis?'
'yep!, i requested it'
'but this jab isnt meningitis..!'
'the fuck?'
so i went back to the nurse that wrote me the prescription.. and then she explained that the doctor wrote the wrong prescription.. and the doctor was already at lunch.
'you've gotta be kidding me .. wtf did u just jabbed in me?'
TB. the hell? so fucking different man. TB = Meningitis? even the number of letters in em are different.. like waaay different..
later she still had the nerve to ask
'do u still want the meningitis jab? cus its gonna cost another 80 bucks. its already at rm271..'
'but i didnt request for the TB jab, why shud i pay for it? plus i only have enough money for the jab i requested..'
actually i had the money la. but gotta stand for ur rights man.
after much discussion with her colleague. she finally said..
'okay.. we're sorry its our mistake.. here.. go to the pharmacy and request for ur meningitis jab. the TB is on us..'
'k great. thanks'
so i went and took the jab..
felt like a goddamn druggy with needle marks all over my arm. i thought that was the end of it.. then came the paying part at the cashier..
'total comes to rm271 sir.. will it be cash or creditcard?'
'there was a mixup earlier on, i'm not gonna pay for the TB shot.'
'huh what? holdon.. lemme check with my superior..'
mahai. cannot take longer ar? so then he brought the everyone who was involved with the mixup to discuss. finally after like 20 minutes of standing there like a tree..
'okay sir, were very sorry for the mixup. the total is rm204..'
gave em the money and left.
bugger. lucky i cancelled my lunch date. if not, i'd be yelling at everybody man. but i did get a free TB shot.
oh well.
lucky they didnt go like..
'sorry sir, we've accidentally jabbed u with viagra.. there was a mixup in the labels.. it should wear off in a day or two..'
fuh! i tell u, how to drive home la liddet. oh i know, first thing i'd do i'll go over krystals..
'hey krys dont let this go to waste yo! we got like 2 days or sumthin.. '
AHAHHAHAA.
kasi hentam sampai biru. :p
theres a lotta things going in circles in my head lately..
sometimes i feel really frustrated and agitated. but i cant do anything about it cus its totally outta my hands. its so bloody annoying. half the time i feel like venting it out over the net and hope that that person actually reads it and actually gets a piece of my mind..
'understand this bitch!'
but im more matured than that. somethings are better left unsaid and kept to oneself. i wouldnt wanna start some lame ass net war or sumshit like that. thats just plain jerkoff man.
non the less. its shitty, when people dont understand u. but being pretentious bastards that they are, they still act like they do. hah!. fuck off u twat. u kno nothing abt me.
i contemplate of the pro's and cons .. the yes and no's endlessly at night .. till there was actually a moment of silence which my brain stopped for a bit. and my mind was blank. at that moment i know i've done something weird, yet interesting.
'i mindfucked myself'
okay.. weird.
anyhows, updates of life;
i've begun to slowly pay off and fill up all the forms needed to fly away from this place. i feel shitty sometimes. then i think again, i shouldnt be feeling this shitty, cus the reason why i felt shitty wasnt gonna feel shitty for me when i'm gone. so i stop feeling like shit.
numsayin?
tapping numbers into the calculator sent shivers down my spine .. cus the actually cost looked so huge. i know my ass is sold, if i fucked myself there .. i wont comeback for sure. well not till i find money to pay back ..
i tried finding peace in reading,but the books i have seem to be filled with too much nuisance.. the rambling never stops. interesting it is, but there are just times when u feel like 'fucking hell just tell me and stop humping my leg already'.
cant be arsed to upload pictures. cus i aint a chick, got a problem with that? fuck off! this aint a bimbo blog.
my hair's short now. cus i look like a pansy in photo's. i got other reasons too.. but why the fuck should i tell u..
think thats all for now.. more cursing and flaunting of badwords later.
cheers.
cus i like running. lemme introduce: nike+
iwantiwantiwantiwantiwantiwantiwantiwantiwantiwantiwantiwant!
though i doubt i'll actually use it 24/7 .. but who cares. least it'll encourage me to run! plus the suit looks very ... stiff.. haha. wear it inside la.. with my flabs .. i'll be laughing at myself while running.
cheers
was doing some thinking lately.. abt a whole lotta things..
i realize that my life really do take sharp turns when i least expected .. i've been called a conservative person before.. but even with my conservative antics of planning, following the plans and keeping myself on the safeside of life. half the time life still sends in a curve ball which hits me dead smack on my face.
sometimes i myself find it amusing. given the fact that i'd really never expected things like that to happen.
maybe i've been putting my goals a lil too short.
i dunno.
anyways, of late there are still a few things in my head which is constantly bugging me..
its driving me absolutely nutter that i cant find a solution for it.
argh!
i think i'm goin crazy.
cheers.
i was watching america's next top model just now.. heh thats what u do when u ahve nothing better to do on a monday night i guess.. tv really sucks on mondays.. theres hardly anything good.. aiyayaiee..
speaking of models.. what a life would that be man, getting all dressed up for people to take pictures of you.. then get paid for it too.. wow.. thats some easy job.. but i guess theres alot more than just that.. theres maintaining a good body.. getting deals and dodging nasty ones.. but it does sound like easy money coming in..
i could never imagine myself doing that for a living..
modelling ..
nope definitely not me..
but i wouldnt mind the extra income.. yeap.
last time around i almost wanted to join that fcuk model search.. but i was soo caught up with things i didnt have time ... was some what a dare.. a bunch o guys.. trying our luck haha..
plus the end results of who won the fcuk models totally suprised us as they look soo average joe-ish..
speaking of which.. i was at the curve on saturday.. and i was walking towards cineleisure.. for the grafiti and other events going on there.. midway walking.. someone tapped my shoulder. thinking it was someone i knew.. i turned around..
3 chinese girls.. whom i have not seen before..
'wtf?'
they introduced themselves.. and said that they were from this casting agency .. and they asked me if i was interested.. it took me quite abit to process the whole thing through.. which in the end i said..
'okay sure..'
so they took me to a more quieter area.. and took a video and pictures of me..
though i doubt they could hear shit on the video since th band was blasting so loudly.
anyways. they said they wanted my face and feet .. for a hushpuppies add..
at heart i was saying ..'bugger i knowla my body flabby.. ish'
so then they passed me their card and asked me to email my profile to them ASAP..
i was kinda reluctant to do so.. but tot of the extra income ..
so this morning i woke up early so i cud browse my pc for pictures and send them in ..
totally forgotten that my HDD CRASHED recently with all the photo's ..
so i had to make do and send in whatever i had....
WHICH WAS VERY LIMITED..
AND LOOKS REALLY BAD.
but i tot.. fuck it. just send em in.. if they want me .. can contact me.. if not.. no harm done.
damn it felt really sillly looking my own pictures .. thehee..
weird day.
lates.
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edit.
pictures of cineleisure .. fresh from the camera.. unedited and uncropped. haha. i cant be arsed.
i always find it rather unpleasant to wake up the next day after you've stayed up the whole night..
its like waking up in a slight daze, confused with body ache's all over. hell i didnt even went out partying last night. i always take a long time to restart my brain in the morning.. so imagine how its like when u stayed up all night..
damn bloody slow okay.
anyways.
went over to cineleisure yesterday to see some grafities. not bad. i'll post up em pictures later. x fresh brought a bus and had some performance on top of the bus, its kinda kewl .. very practical too in terms of event handling. cus u can just stuff everything in the bus. hehe. which i bet they do after every event.
they also had some street skateboarding / bmx .. 1 on 1 football which also happens to be an exact replica of nike panna k.o. heh.. i find that rather amusing. crowd wasnt bad, a mixture of youth and young adults... might be going there again today .. see how it goes ..
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i was out wit her last night. i think we're together now. :) but i feel really shitty everytime i look at the calendar. sigh. guess i gotta bring this up the next time i see her..
yesterday was awkward since i was out with her group of friends.. and i totally didnt know any of em.. so imagine a verrryyy silent suffieaee. ;D
finally some of the pictures are up. i'm too arsed to post the rest. ;D heheee
lunch with ee mun
playin cards while waiting for worldcup
eatin lunch at shah alam.. wit sumone. ;)
thats actually nasi goreng kampung, but the macro made it look like some mee goreng.. hurm 
she took this picture. not bad ..
drew & pei yin
mark & fiona
ee mun & pei yin
night shot of the pool
i'm just too lazy to do anything these days. heh.
cant upload any pictures yet cus i havent bought a cardreader..
all i'm doing lately is just jogging, eating, sleeping, seeing close friends. heh.
things are fucking way laid back.
oh and my sister got a frigging 1st class honors for her degree.. which makes her a fucking smart ass. now thats competition yo. aieeeeee.. i can already feel the heat of studying.
anyways. something to share wit u guys...
the new arsenal home jersey...
a new home. a new kit. :)
actually ive already seen the jersey like 4 months back. haha! jus couldnt disclose it here. anyways. now its out. kinda looks like the old dreamcast one.. doesnt matter. cus we gonna kick ass this season yo!
bring on SAVIOLA YO!
cheers.
i just completed my run!
woohoo.. i'm so proud of myself. todays like the first day. hope i have the dicipline to follow through with the program yo !
45 mins non stop run. (i did like 6 rounds of ttdi!!! JUMP FOR JOY! OMGOMG!)
2 sets of pushups(10 reps) .. i so suck at pushups now. last time i cud do like 30 reps per set and do like 4 sets. stick for arms man.
3 sets of situps (front and sides) sorry la i got tummy yo. ;p
90 secs of bridging.
6 sets of (i dunno what, suppose to tone ur butt muscles ;p)
in theory, i'm suppose to go another 45 mins run in the evening. but i wouldnt wanna fall sick tomorrow rite. so its a slow paddle up stream.. :P
okay. todays post is very sad and pathetic.
:P
ugh.
man my body ache's all over. its been a total wreck for the past 2 days or so.. god damn worldcup. heh. finally its over man. now its all chill and boring nights..
shit.
watched the final game at hartamas square.. aka the usuall footie hangout. i was there the day before also for the 3rd placing game which portugal got trashed(so badly, im starting to wonder how many times will c.ronaldo have to cry before he wins any huge titles. HAHA! PANSY!) but it was a good game. least nuno gomez gave em 1 goal back. so ok la.
but really. 2 days back to back of hartamas square is really. ouch!
cus when u want good seats, then u gotta come early.
which we did. we came abt 11 pm(for the 3rd placing, 10.30pm for final)
game's at bloody 3am yo!
even brought cards and uno to play wit, just to kill time.
still.. imagine... 4 hours of waiting, 2 hours of game. whole day of activities. aiyoyo!
the final game was worst since i had to send off my parents to klia right after watching the 3rd placing match. so i only managed to get 3 hours sleep before all my phone starts ringing.. thus i had quite a number of nodding moments watching italy play france.
ish.
that was yesterday !
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today is lounge day!
the weather was soo awesome; not too hot not rainy either (its like english weather!! HAHA!) , went for lunch with a certain someonesomeone. then bummed for abit.. then came back to continue my sleep/rest.
now i feel well rested. :)
cus tomorrow i start my fitness program! ;p
crazy man. 45 mins jog in the morning, 45 mins jog in the evening.. sit ups and shite.
but it does sound interesting. gotta try to know right. heh
lates.
ssup.
tis friday.
boring friday that is. heh.
went over to 1u just now to get me some batteries for my new cam. since i already have a sony charger, thus i opt to buy some sony batteries. so i went to the sony booth/shop on the 1st level .. browsing browsing.. the really good batteries didnt include chargers. thus i enquired with the sales dude over there. if i cud use the high-end sony battery's and charge it with a normal charger.
'no u cant'
trusting the words of a salesman.. i nodded and continued searching for better deals. but i did manage to get my hands on the brochure before leaving..
while walking past shops, i flipped open the brochure..
'FAQ's on sony battery's'
wow kewl. right.. so where were we..
Q10: What happens if I insert a lower-rated battery, (eg; 1700 mAh) into the higher-rated Sony quick Chargers (2700 mAh) or vice-versa?
Your batteries will still be charged as normal. With no risk of damage to your battery or charger. If your batteries are lower-rated than your charger, they weill be charged faster. If they are higher-rated, they will be charged until the safety timer goes off.
BLOODY BASTARD LIED!
so i bought the higher-rated batteries and saved money on the charger. damn puki wei.
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coincidentally, em was working for the samsung event downstairs.. so i went to kacau her. she was promoting some samsung digicams,camcorders and the rest mp3 stuff.
right after we said our greetings of hie hello .. the first thing she said was;
'aiyo! damn stupid wei my boss!'
'why la? what happened?'
'i'm standing here right, promoting the stuff.. but i know jack shit about it kay.. they never brief us on the items.. god knows how many times customers ask question.. and i couldnt answer.. shy wei.. '
'thats fucked. what times ur break? we go eat!'
'i'll call u.'
so i left to do more browsing while waiting for her to go for her break.
she text me later telling me the time. thus we went makan at BK yo! whopper! mmmm. chitchatted with her for a good one hour or so.. most updating each other with recent happenings and stuff. nothing much actually. just that it feels like such a long long time ago. haha. we're old now. daymn.
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later got back home. onlined for a bit to kill off time. then i saw ilee online;
hahahahahahahaha!
anyways. now i got a friend to chill with! HOORAHHH!! yay yay! more camwhoring ! yay!
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i had to cut the conversation short cus i was going out to jog.
reach ttdi park; strapped on my ipod, playlist; dnb hard, stopwatch; START!
i've never timed myself before actually, but since my friend said that u have to jog for more than 30 minutes then only will u burn calories.
it was sucha hot day and i sweat alot. so half the time my earphones are coming off. then suddenly, the right earphone sounded really soft.
oh fuck. confirm sweat went inside. fuck fuck fuck !
i took off the earphones and jogged without any music..
DAAMNN TORMENTING OKAY!
no music no life yo.
anyways, i finished my 4 rounds and averaged about 8 minutes per round.
fucking slow wei. confirm damn fat now.
bugger.
NVM NEXT WEEK NO WORLDCUP! CAN RUN IN THE MORNING!!
i hope. pfft..
for the past month or so .. i've been getting close to this girl .. we talked.. we laughed ... we went out .. things are great i'd say.. but then .. there are some complications which forbids us from going out more often.. more towards on her side actually.
so anyways. i think she's really great. heck only after i actually stood next to her do i realize she's like really tall compared to all the other girls i've dated. haha. so as everything sounds all so fine and dandy.
one issue.
which bothers me morning and night.
i like her, i really do. but im stuck. i cant admit openly to her that i do like her.. cus if i did .. i'd be selfish since i'll be leaving for UK in like another month and a half. i wouldnt wanna hurt her by suddenly leaving.. that'll be shit. plus the implications of doing such might give her a bad impression about guys. plus why would she wanna have a relationship for only 2 months locally, then the rest of it internationally.. even i wouldnt vouch for such actions.
sigh.
if i just keep everything to myself. it'll be fine i guess for both of us. but i'm scared i'll have regrets later in life. which i've had enough of. i hate it when theres a timeline involved.
oh what would i do now..
i'm so friggin in love wit my cameraaaaa.. it takes beaautifuul picturessss.. yayy!
the macro feature really beats the crap outta most digicams.. was so fascinated with it, took pictures of rock surfaces, flowers, skin and lots moreee ! ..
kay, i sounded really eccentric there.
but anyways, really. the pictures are great. i'd reccomend it to anyone who's looking for a digicam to buy that costs around 1.6k.
one problem though. i tried plugging it in to my pc to upload the pictures so i cud brag to all of u guys.. then .. nothing happened..
crap.
i read the manual over and over, its suppose to be working!
so i've resorted to getting a cardreader to not have this issue again.
tomorrow go buy cardreader!
booooo..
damn potong ..
after a really really long day. finally got home yesterday at 5.30am. feeling like utter shite .. i think i've lost interest to watch the worldcup noww...
why u ask?
cus... at the moment... the world ranked #1,#2,#3,#5 are all out.
now how about that?
#1 : Brazil.. ugly football .. lost to france last night. ooommmmggg... BOLLOCKS!
#2 : Czech Republic .. couldnt even go pass group stage. koller injured, baros recent healed, nedved too old to run.
#3 : Netherlands .. i was rooting for this team. heck i bought the jersey, but i only manage to wear it only ONCE before they lost. bollocks, now i gotta wait till worldcup is over to wear it again!
#5 : USA! bet u guys didnt expect the US to be so high ranked rite? haha. well they are, but they still suck in SOCCER? dudes, its football not soccer. u twats.
so noww... ah bollocks. all the teams suck !
ugly wc final ..
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introducing... the CANON S3is!
also known as my new baby! mmwahmmwah!
its a semi slr, cus i cant bloody afford a god damn nikon d50.. plus slr's cant take bloody video's.
anyways, im only a amateur anways. have yet to reach that porngrapher stage yet. haha. but one thing i gotta say, i'm bloody lovin the super macro feature. shutters speed rocks. but sadly i didnt buy high speed sd's .. so my continuous shots are slow.. and not so pretty. ;(
but whats all that compared to absolute infinite camwhoring ! haha.
k lates. hungreh!
you wanna know whats shit?
argentina losing to germany.
thats shit.
you wanna know whats bollocks?
holland losing to portugal.
thats bollocks.
fucking hell, this worldcup is turning into rubbish man. lucky england's and france's group will meet in the semi's. if not, i'd be laughing my ass off it england vs france for finals. top it off with france winning with ribery scoring a bloody hattrick.
and that is rubbish.
aih.
wtf man!
come on ukraine ! boohoo italy divers!
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on an interesting note, tomorrow i'll be heading down to KL to buy myself a new digicam. i've been browsing and pacing around like a mad man for the past month or so just to get the best price in town. turns out, retailers are fuckers not to mention racists whom increases the price of any valuable when it comes to selling it to a malay. you bastats.
anyway, fuck that. tomorrow camera. and then..
CAMWHORING TIMEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!
i dont care what people say, i dont give a fuck how badly their gonna stare.. it aint my fucking problem.
i wanna slut around the camera aaandd i'm inviting all my friends to join me. since my hdd crashed few months back. i need as much pictures as possible to bring to UK. thehehe! thus;
BRING ON THE SLUTTING !
i can already hear krystal screaming and jumping for joy.
natural cam slut that she is. haha !
lates.
