lovefool

for the past month or so .. i've been getting close to this girl .. we talked.. we laughed ... we went out .. things are great i'd say.. but then .. there are some complications which forbids us from going out more often.. more towards on her side actually.

so anyways. i think she's really great. heck only after i actually stood next to her do i realize she's like really tall compared to all the other girls i've dated. haha. so as everything sounds all so fine and dandy.

one issue.

which bothers me morning and night.

i like her, i really do. but im stuck. i cant admit openly to her that i do like her.. cus if i did .. i'd be selfish since i'll be leaving for UK in like another month and a half. i wouldnt wanna hurt her by suddenly leaving.. that'll be shit. plus the implications of doing such might give her a bad impression about guys. plus why would she wanna have a relationship for only 2 months locally, then the rest of it internationally.. even i wouldnt vouch for such actions.

sigh.

if i just keep everything to myself. it'll be fine i guess for both of us. but i'm scared i'll have regrets later in life. which i've had enough of. i hate it when theres a timeline involved.

oh what would i do now..