its startin

i suddenly realized how busy i'll be this semester, busy enough that i be as ragged as an old cloth by the end of it. heh well not literally. it struck me right smack on my bottom. literally. my comfy sleeping shorts finally gave in and was torn right on my right butt cheek. leaving a nice view of my boxers. no cheeky time for u bastards.

sob sob.

after almost 7 years, we now have to part ways my friend. you've been there when i was up and running not to mention the times i was down and getting some. from the first time i put you on at sogo, till last monday when u finally lost all your strength and tore. i shall cherish the thoughts of putting u on snuggly right after class and remembering the nights when i accidentally wet you with my childrens. sorry about that mate. oh the memories. u've done good my friend. i'll wear my next shorts up high in your memory. cheers~!

sniff sniff. just cant help it. oughh!

i finished reading sidney sheldon's 'are you afraid of the dark' novel in 2 days. like just after 2 days, its either i'm reading faster or the books just not thick enough for me. the books alright i guess, but i think it bore too much emotional describtion that i'd prefer. it made me feel sappy a few times. each time it does, i'm anticipating some gruesome murder or genocide. i think i might stay off sidney sheldon's for a while.

oh yea. after buying the book did i only found out that sidney sheldon is a HE. not a SHE. my bad. thehe. oh well!

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registered for a jobstreet account last weekend, cus i have this mock interview thingie which i'm suppose to pretend that i'm actually in an interview. well its not just pretend, i'll be evaluated for it. thus, i actually had to write my own application letter and curriculum vitae. explains the previous post. ;D

did u know that its so friggin hard to find a well paying job?, i'll be graduating end of this semester with a HnD in Telecomm. and the only fucking job suitable for me so far is becoming an assistant engineer or a technician. which the estimated average wage is about 1200 - 1800. or so?

well it might look huge figure if ur living with ur parents, try living alone and paying for your own car or sumthing. i reckon u wont even have money anything else. so how the bloody fuck am i gonna get fucking married with that kinda money?

i'm getting married at 30. so fuck that issue.

so anyways, this mock-interview is actually under my english module and my english lecturer happens to be a fag. literally, wears pink tight shirt which shows a huge belly, female watches and wears a fucking diamond ring. my friends are now predicting my transition phase, which i play along saying that when i do, they'd be my first victims. since most of them are virgins. ahah.

thus, next class my fag of a lecturer is teaching fashion or dress etiquette for interviews. all of a suddenly i feel as though i'm in queer eye for the straight guy or sumthing. he specifically mentioned that if we dont dress properly, he'd comment and touch everything except those underneath. i'm thinking worst case scenario here. so on monday, suffieaee's putting on the best shit he's got. fucking fags. ew.

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i went to see my project advisor yesterday, since i've only actually seen him once, when we needed someone to sign our project agreement. i reckoned he wouldnt remember jack shit. which turned out to be true. so we had to explain everything all over again. he noddenly slowly whilst absorbing every detail. finally he made a remark that simply demoralized both me and my friend.

'if it is that simple, why dont u just buy a remote controlled car and call it ur final project?'

[see's dreams of becoming engineer slowly crumbling down into shambles and slowly turning into dust]

he then told us to make the project bigger. he said that though the project might be simple but if we made our efforts clear. we'd still get a distinction. with his words repeating over and over in my head. i made a decision that if it takes every penny i have and months of sleepless nights. then so be it, as long as i get that friggin distinction.

thus, now ill have to travel to bangi for an appointment with an automotive lecturer. to learn some mechanical engineering and gain more info. i'm opting to make the body of the robot approximately 45cm x 30cm x 15cm. just the tyre's themselves are about 5' high and 4' thick. i'll be using a halogen bulb as the bumper lights. the design of body will be based on a apc/tank. if not, somewhat a smaller version of the batmobile in batman begins.

theres actually a working prototype of what i'm making. its more high tech. controlled via joystick connected to a pc and has sound output. the whole body and fabrication is totally custom made from a factory. you wouldnt believe the price for it.. that mother fucking shit costs RM40,000. yep fucking 40k.

i wonder how much i might sell mine for. ehhe.

im now reading jk rowlings latest, haeerrryy pottaahhhh. the sad wank with self issue's..