i need more timeeeeeee

if i could ask for anything at this moment, i'd ask for more time.

i'd want 36 hours in a day and that theres 9 days in a week. cus honestly, there just isnt enough time!

kudo's to all of em who've studied overseas and managed their time so efficiently that they can slot in all kinds of fun stuff like traveling, shopping and not screw up their studies. thats some really tough act to follow!

perhaps 2 years abroad isnt enough for me to do all things i wanted to do..

but i'm already tired of living this daily routine. the honest fact is, i've lost half the motivation i had when i first arrived here.

however i did find a different form of motivation to push me all the way to the finish line. so fret not, i'll definitely not screw up. badly. that is :P okay okay, i wont screw up. i cant screw up and i wont !

i am at the part of my life where i wanna slow things down, pause time for a minute or two. enjoy what i have and probably take that minute to think fully.

at this very point, i think the tables have turned and life is no longer,
'50% planning 50% up to god'. tis now '40% planning 60% up to god!'

though i seem quite relaxed now, i know in a few weeks time i'll be so swamped with assignments and everything else.. i doubt i can even see my head in all that mess. :P i definitely hate the calm before the storm. its like riding on the rollercoaster and your about to reach the peak just before the drop.

which in reality i'd just raise my hand and go

wheeeeeee..!

and enjoy the ride. which i hope aint too bumpy nor to winding. :D

ting-tang wala wala bing bang!

i dont know how other people's mind think.

probably cus im not taking psychology. nor will i ever wanna take that subject. the idea of dealing with other people's issue is just, overwhelmingly annoying. haha. man do i sound like a selfish brat. but seriously, i have enough issue's of my own to sort out in my own lil head. i dont need others people's thoughts.

so i'm taking my casual 15 minute rest from doing my project.

yes i'm a nocturnal when it comes to doing work. which pisses me off cus i'd normally wake up early with the mindset of starting my day early, do work early and finish early.

yet its never the case, its always. wake up early, stare at pc, get sleepy, afternoon naps, then when the clock reaches like 9pm or like last time around 3.30am. my mind is suddenly flooded with idea's and this lil digits i call fingers start tap dancing on the keyboard.

honestly it aint a good habit.

plus my work level works in a form of spurts.

American Heritage Dictionary - Cite This Source - Share This
spurt (spûrt) Pronunciation Key
n.

1. A sudden forcible gush or jet.
2. A sudden short burst, as of energy, activity, or growth.

v. spurt·ed, spurt·ing, spurts

v. intr.

1. To gush forth suddenly in a jet.
2. To make a brief intense effort or show a sudden increase in activity or speed.

v. tr.
To force out in a sudden jet.

tis annoying. cus when your sat at the desk for hours but the actual time spent doing the task is less than probably 2 hours a day.

its even the same for when i'm studying. i remember i'd doodle for half the time then suddenly start doing the math for a good 30 minutes of intense calculation or theory memorization then i'm doodling again.

btw i got this when i google-d for spurts. :P rather obscene but bear with me ey



oh and i find it really interesting that sometimes i wake up in the middle of the night from my sleep with the awesome-st idea's! but then cus i just cant be bothered to write them down.. i forget them when i wake up.

woopsie times up. back to work ladies.. :)

the vicious cycle of life.

freedom for students is normally associated when exams are over.
however sudden death is the feeling when exam results are about to come out.

okay maybe not sudden death, but more to mixed feelings. the anxiety attacks awaiting the results to be posted is just.. ughhh!

'did i do well? please god tell me i least got that question right. omg i cant handle this stress!'

then comes the judgment day. as you move your finger downwards searching for your id no. then slowly scrolling right towards all the marks.. from then on, its either;

'omfg i passed heck i aced all of em yayyyy!'
'oh okay. passed. decent marks. cant complain.' or
'shite. shite. shite. shite !'

its the very last one of those expressions which everyone hates. but in this cruel life, one thing i've learn is that you have to fall before you can taste greatness. its that old cliche saying of 'getting back on the horse after you fall'. corny, but true. i'm not saying its an easy act to do. trying not to be depressed when the shit hits the fan.



but its how you react to it which makes you more mature and probably an adult.

boohoo. man i hate that word; adult. bah!

i myself have felt the lowest point in my life. actually i think i started at the lowest point and slowly trotted upwards. i was the perfect example for high school screw ups. i hated it so much that i didnt wanna learn anything. it was just a place to meet friends and chat basically. but it came a point, though quite late that you'd feel guilty to yourself for not trying, guilty to your parents for wasting so much of their money and guilty for giving them false hope.

so like a switch being flicked on.

i decided to work a lil harder then i normally do and that has proved to be the pivotal changing point in my life.

okay i lied. after that there was the downfall of gf blunder. still.

what i'm trying to say is, picking yourself up is the hardest when your at your lowest. but when you do, you get this natural high which makes you feel like your a supernatural being and anything was possible. you start seeing life in a whole different picture. confidence and greatness comes in as well as a neat package.

so kids, message of the day is .. dont dwell, move on, work hard and remember to spend suffie drinks when you see him :D

lates.

boohoo

so yea, uni is back on track.

hence its time to abandon this blog !

muahhaha!

okay probably not. i'll try to find something more interesting to post. apart from words of misery from me. but since i dont have any good material to share with you guys. lemme start by talkin about what i normally do when i start up my pc in the morning..

my daily routine of internet dependent life.

start pc.
check emails. but hardly ever reply any of em. hahaha.
blogs.
footie.
gadgets.

end.

since my type of blog reading normally consist of photography type.. probably not you lots cup of coffee. but if any of you are interested. theres just tonnes of em actually, since nowadays blogging without photo's(like what i normally do) dont get much hits(like mine! yay!)

but i normally hop over to the likes of; shaolintiger, smashpop, glaringnotebook and from then on u just click on their links u probably end up onto another photoblog again :P

i hardly read bimbo blogs unless i'm utterly bored and at the point of slitting my wrist. cus i think their a waste of time and probably rantings of a the daily life of a bimbo themselves;

'today i went shopping.. i bought etc etc etc.. here are pix.. omfg im hawt.'

which normally ends up with spam comments and they go;

'this is my blog, i can say watever i want.. boohoo sniff snif booo..'

aaaanyways.

i reckon the most entertaining one would be geekologie its super funneh! plus theres also a link for thesuperficial which is a gossip blog about celebs.. funny as well.

so i'm off.

but before that.



amikkauu pandangan hidung kembang mautsssss ! :D

air

damnn... but still a mac to me. ;p

probably cause for jaw lock :D