£ dilemma

every early semester comes the time where i have to send in an excel file which contains the financial details for the coming intuition year.

as i reluctantly pressed down on the keyboard, i know as much as i try to minimize on my expenditure, it'll still be multiplied by 7 in malaysian ringgit.

finally getting the total sum in pounds, i surfed the web to get the most current currency rates. almost evertime i skip a breath as i clicked the convert button, as it slowly loads the new page with the total sum in MYR.

*gasp*

saving the file, i ask myself if im doing the right thing here. to ask for so much money, yet it was a necessity. half of me says, 'dont send it, you know the amount. even if you worked for 2 years, you'd still wont have enough to get that much' ..

then the rational part of the brain kicks in, 'you dimwit, you're already in 3rd year. just make sure you get yourself a good job and pay it back..'

get it back i will. for sure.

you'd often see on the tele about how much blood was spilled to get money.. well in this actual world where money is power. its pretty much true.

i've had my fair share of being a brute feeling hostile against those with more financial power.

but i guess, its normal to feel that way.

since money circulates so often. karma does as well.