constructive criticism

been busy trying to juggle things about.

ugh.

realized this morning of how im always playing catch up. bad habit. really. but really, its not like i want to be this way. heh. :P

anyways, i always find it really nerve wrecking when i step into my supervisors office. the moment i step foot into the building, the smell of the carpet hits me and i start to get nervous. getting feedback on my report, he said he wasnt pleased. that i was more less mumbling in it.

so i explained myself, i was playing it safe. scared of putting too much detail that if questioned i'd stutter.

which i did.

he explained again the theories for like the 80th(exaggerated ;p) time or something.. all of which i already know and have a clear cut picture of but just cant seem to put it into words when questioned.

i felt foolish. i felt like i was back in school again.

but he was supportive this time around. which i am happy to know, giving feedback of what i must do(though half of em i am already doing).. its constructive.

its already feb, i have jitters about how all if this would turn up. keeps me up at night some nights. but i am confident, i will make it.

this time around, its not the depressive peer pressure. but more of a 'i've alot of ground to cover but i know there are people to support me through..'

so perhaps its because i lack of self belief which dampens my success level..

fear not mother and father!

whilst i let out a roar of courage(sounds more like a meow if u ask me). i have found what i was missing last time around. only thing left is..

'bile laa duit mara nk masuk ni weii.....'