ages.

i just noticed that, each time i'm at home i have a problem. i cant seem to sleep and eat properly. ironically, were talking about my home ere. in other words, house or sanctuary which i've spent most of my life in. the place which i discovered by first few pubic hairs and brought back my girlfriends for some 'comfort'. its becoming really annoying, that when i know i'm tired and in need of good sleep, i just cant seem to get any. i think the issue is that, my mindset is that when i'm home i can achieve much much more than just sleeping.

as for eating. couldnt u agree more than mom's cooking is always the best? well, i just dont seem to have the appetite to eat at home either, and its not like i eat outside. i just like .. dont eat. habit perhaps? sigh.

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i received good news from my sister earlier, saying that she has already bought my phone. yippie! 6630 ya'll! 3g capable and shiiiiitt! hahaha.

i'm pretty confused as to which uni should i visit during my trip to the UK, its really hard to decide. well i'd love to visit and enroll straight into the very best uni's. but with my modest grades, theres a higher chance for them not to take me. ;( so now i gotta decide.. a decision which i'm not even sure of the options. aiee..

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perhaps those of you who've met me recently would know that suffieaee has interests in a particular girl. well lately i've been talking to her more often. and i gotta say that i do have fancies for this one. i know its been almost a year since i've been any relationships. with my very own girlfriend or other people's. ;P

its not that i have a inferiority complex towards relationships, but perhaps i just wasnt ready yet. and now, i think i'm about ready to once again, venture into the realms of emotional torture and agonizing torment of a relationship.

i'm sure ya guys wanna know bits n pieces of this girl. ey.

well she's a year younger and i wouldnt say she's as hot as a super model. but the fact is, she's hot. haha. though i know i might be hoping for more than i'd get, but i am ready for the suffering to come. if somehow i do fail.. well that'll just mean either, ive turned into a green jizz of a monster or im turning gay. i hope its the green.

current problem which might occur now is that;

• i might not be able give her the full attention she wants
• i'm not rich
• she's not ready

but all i know is that, im willing to give as much as i can to please her. just as how i was willing to do for all my ex girlfriends. which is .. a lot ...

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guess we'll just have to see what happens ..

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did u actually see me when u look at me?