messed

its almost 2 days since my phone got stolen. ironically, it feels as though i just lost a girlfriend instead of a handphone. heh. ya know, the feeling of insecurity, unsure of what to do, dont know who to talk to, wanting to go out but unable to do so, eating disorder, excessive sleeping.

aihh.. the fucked up feeling.

it may sound like i'm overreacting, but the truth is that i worked my ass off for that phone. planned to used that phone till i left for the uk which is like another 1 year and 5 months time. i bought a new 256mb mmc card for it, took fuck load of pictures and video's of close friends and family. some note for my project was on that phone, so was all the reminders. last but not least, all the phone numbers.

not only some of em are really hard to contact but aihh.

i dont need this stress.

worst of, i dont have money to actually buy a new phone. heck i'm even lacking in some cash for my trip to the uk. my parents dont have money since my house is currently under renovation, plus their gonna pay half for my trip also. so i dont wanna trouble them with more financial burden.

i know a couple o friends who are willing to borrow their spare phones to me, but the undeniable fact that i was robbed by my own friend has left me feeling a bit insecure. obviously i cant afford to lose their phones too. thus, worst off. i guess i'll be without a phone until july. when i come back from the uk.

so guys, if any o u have problem's contacting me well er.. dial my house phone and leave a msg alrite. if not mail me o something ..

tis a fucked up week.

i curse thou thief to die an agonizing death, cut off thou fingers, rip off thou limbs and pour acid on thou face. i will show u no remorse when i find you. your family, friends and everyone you ever loved will know of your doing. you wretcherd backstabbing rodent.

hatefully yours,

suffieaee.