dear

its only been 3 days but i've already started looking through all your pictures. countless envious stares i give to the couples i've walked past.

i miss you dear already. :(

i write rants. so deal with it.

i'm sorry if i dont write much. at the moment i'm struggling to find time to juggle work play family etc. it does take some effort to put thoughts to words and as always, some thoughts are better left unwritten.

today a there was a thread email from my friends complaining that they were dozing off at work. drained of most energy but as we all need to work to make ends meet. waited and bobbed their heads every 5 mins whilst looking at the clock, just waiting for it to hit 5 sharp.

another was stating due to the nature of work and her body's condition (naturally suffers from low sugar in blood), she's thinking of purchasing glucose and taking it so she has enough energy to do work and not faint during work.

i too have my fair share of sacrificing body and mind for work. but there are times when i do ponder on the limit we should sacrifice for work.

after a few months on the job, i've made up mind that eventhough the nature of the work requires you to stay back and complete everything as soon as possible. my body cannot commit itself let alone my other responsibility to my family and loved ones. moments when i just couldnt be fucked to wait any longer in the office, i just do as much as i can and bugger off.

but we are all lambs to the career wolf.

putting limb after limb to please ourselves and bosses in order to get that bigger paycheque.

life's a total bitch from what it truly is.

never have i seen so many of my colleagues turn into a different person all together on the weekend. weekdays, hiding their faces behind their cubicle. but on weekends, shooting off to faraway islands for scuba diving, mountain climbing, roadtrips, outings, all of which contains the term sweat and body aches.

has it come to a point where every weekend should be treated as a glorified holiday.

often people confess, look for a job which is your passion, your liking and you'll never regret it. i disagree, stating what you find most passionate and like most will turn into your most hated. so long as its under the term 'work' and it pays you at the end of the month.

end.

awww

awww isnt it.. awwwww..

daily muse

i find it amusing that 2 years back this is now i looked like. haha. fact of the matter is i must admit that i do have a pretty boy face. sigh.


people often mistaken this for a white gold/platinum ring. nay people, its merely a tungsten ring. however what it represents is what matters. not the material, not the cost.


i guess by now you've noticed that i'm actually testing out my new 2010 lens. haha. it is awesomes maximus by the way.


my half working earphones. for the pricetag on these babies.. i seriously feel being ripped is an understatement. non the less, most of the thing i own i'll use em till either they split apart or stop working completely..

tomorrow i'll spam this page further with pictures of the lil loved one. :D

the engagement

after much request i guess its okay to finally publish some pictures and pray that that certain somebody doesnt complain and by then the pictures will have to come down. :P

anyways, the whole ceremony was a small one. it is more of a 'introduction of parents' + unofficial engagement without any extended family.

on my side it was just me and my parents, whilst on her side it was her parents and her. her siblings were around but they werent part of the discussion ;p

overall it was a smooth ceremony, alhamdulillah. both parents, mine and her were satisfied with the discussion and arrangement and will look forward for the next arrangement.

ok fine here are them(only 2 :P) pictures

without realizing

came february meant that i've already been back in malaysia for a year. some might say that new years has past however, to me my new year started when i got back home. :)

it has been a good journey, lots of endearing moment. some good some bad. mostly immeasurable.

There were points where i thought of returning to uk where life was just about you yourself n you again. It was a selfish thought i admit but when i came to my senses i realized this is where i belong at home.

Just to share a few highlights in the passed year;
- after 6 months of separation, it was just awesome to see her. Words really could not describe the feeling.
- catching up on long lost friends brought back so man memories its sometimes hard to believe im this old already. Haha
- struggled badly with the recession and couldnt get a job as quickly qs i thought. Even came to a point friendships were broken and i waited 6 months and sat for only 4-5 interviews before getting a job
- had to make a decision which effected my whole career/life
- discovered i had a growth in my back which was the cause of my recurring back pain. Taking my tally of going into the surgerical ward to 3 times. Went under full anaestetics and this time under the knife to remove the growth.
- started my career life and realized that im now a full fledged adult earning and contributing to the country? Haha more like getting paid at the end of the month.
- job brought me places i never imagined visiting.
- enjoyed/ cherished the time spent with her
- kept to my word and got engaged with the love of my life.

So i guess it has truly been a long and meaningful year back in malaysia. =)

Hopefully theres more good times to come.