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Thursday, April 28, 2005

because i have all the time in the world.

well, perhaps the absolute paradox of that.

gees. did ya guys notice. its already gonna be fucking may in a few days time! fucking month of MAY!

okay fine, perhaps the month of may means shit to you guys. but to me it bloody means alot. cause the month of JUNE is just right after MAY! oh just bugger off, if u think i sound like a kid who just discovered the calendar.

the only bloody reason why i'm making such a fuss about MAY is that;

1) Its the last month of the semester and the amount of assignments i have mounting up makes everest sounds like a cup A breast. seriously, like i've mentioned before. its a real fucked up thing when lecturers give last minute assignments and expect us to finish on time. well it aint actually that bad, but when 4 of em give you assignments at the very last minute with a week dateline. its just bollocks nuf said.

the end of this semester would mean, i have 1 last semester to go before graduating. man i cant wait, though part of me is scared of what am i gonna do in that 9 months before flying. i guess that 9 months will be spent on working and reconnecting with people whom i've lost contact. well those who are still around i guess.

being in here changed me so damn much. though at times the place is utterly shit and the hate in me grows enourmously, this place is where i spent 2 and a half years at. getting me damn HnD. will miss the small community of people here.

2) for almost 1 and half year i've been planning it. well at first all i planned was to go on a trip to somewhere. unsure of where, but i placed 2k on my bank account for a holiday. destination: unknown. traveling with: unknown. then suddenly, one day while i was talking of my plans for a holiday. my mom said. 'how bout u go to the uk.'

pretty much after that, things slowly came together. i was gonna head off down to UK on June 2005. happy lil wanker i was.

end of january. i received a mail from me sis in the UK, stating that her friends were planning to go to Italy. she then asked if i wanted to tag along. my first question to her was, 'wtf is in italy?'

anyways, my mom gave me the nod. suddenly, it hit me. I'M FUCKING GOING TO EUROPE U FUCKERS!!

well i'll still be there to further study, nevertheless..

so the agreement was, i'd pay for my own accomodation in UK and my loving mommy will pay for my trip to UK and also flight to & fro to UK.

yay!

its BLOODY MAY!

so, i'll be heading down to the UK in like... *drumroll* A MONTH!!!

muahahha. envy me fuckers! burn in envy beeyootch! ;P

3) another perk of may, the last month for me to save up cash. yep yep. its been an absolutely pain in the ass to save money. imagine, walking into a shopping mall. seeing something u've wanted since.. i dunno like 6 months ago? and ya just cant buy it. cause the money had to be used in another way.

oh the agony. the emotional torment i've been through. sob sob.

well now, i'll be able to fucking spend my money in pounds! hahaha! will also head down to shopping complex's right after i come back here to spend those extra pounds that i have. daddy needs new boxers!
not literally. :P

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well enough about the month of may. latest updates.

the shuffle.

other day, i was extremely bored. so i downloaded a few (64MB =P) melbourne shuffle video's. with the intent of going back to my room and perhaps try to follow the steps. after 30 minutes of observing and studying the moves. it was finally my turn to do the 'Melbourne shuffle!'.

so i put on my socks and start twisting that ankle.

*doors open, roomates walk in*

*weird glares at dude wearing only boxers and socks*

roommate1: dude u got some major issues. seek help ASAP!
suff: oh shuttup, i'm trying to do this melbourne shuffle thingie. the so called in thing for clubbers.
roommate2: oh yea yea, heard of that. how'd ya do it anway.

*plays video*

*after 10 minutes, melbourne shuffle video playin on pc. 2 newbie shufflers(me and my roommate) trying to shuffle which looked like a very bad version of the 'twist'*

okay. so we might not be the best dancers around. bleh.

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engineerin toys.

well the fun thing about being an engineer is when ya make something. my point of view on things, each engineer when he creates or upgrades anything. he's like a small child getting a new toy. well thats how i felt yesterday when i was testing out my new wireless camera.

like a kid wanting to brag to people on his new toy. i walked around holding the camera while my friend was watching on a remote monitor. testing to see how far could the camera transmit, i walked into my friends room where everyone suddenly crowd around to see my new 'toy'.

partially my project is done. but the research is still going on and i have a project viva coming up in 2 weeks, which scares the shit outta me. i hope i get a distinction, really important for me.

earlier on, my lecturer told me. if my project worked. he might asks us to enter a engineer project contest. unsure if its just within my uni or against students from other universities. totally boosted my moral by 40% . we're not sure if we're still gonna place that robot arm on it. if not, we might opt for making the robot 'submergeable'. have to think things through first.

projects are always fun. paperwork sucks ass. viva is utter shit.

Sunday, April 24, 2005

the days of mischief & mayhem.

yesterday after a 2 hour chat with feef. i kinda realized that im currently not my usuall self. the usuall self meaning, the old mischievous and wacky self i used to be .. sad but true fact i guess.

the old days, i used to make a living at doing non-sense. things like what u see in jackass, which arent only stupid but nontheless hilarious stuff. perhaps its the differential lifestyle which i now succumb to which makes me unable to unwind and unleash my true old self. life now seems to be all too serious and stressful.

though i do not regret what i've achieved so far in life, i know these achievements will bring me nearer to that goal in life..

'Being absolutely filthy rich, marry a model wife, drive an luxury car, marry a second model wife, own an apartment dead centre of KL which i'll use just for clubbing nights, marry a third wife who's the daughter of a millionaire and lastly join the millionaire's club by the age of 35 and retiring by the age of 40'

haha. just kidding.

but i rejoice at the fact that i'l be graduating at the end of this year and i'll ahve a whole bloody 9 months to be the old jackass self. which i hope i dont die from boredom first.

ironically, if u were to tell the jackass version of suffieaee when he was 16 that he'd be taking engineering, i can assure you. it'll be the joke of the year.

i hardly attended class, i failed most of my subjects, my parents assumed that i'd fail atleast 2 of my subjects and receive passes for the rest of em for SPM, i only went to school for the sake of killing time and bumming about with friends.

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though it was never fruitful to be mischievous. but the idea was fun and assuringly hilarious. how'd i'd become such a serious character sometimes contrasts way too much, i myself am baffled.

so now, i shall make an oath. to remember my roots and pray that my son doesnt come out like bam margera. though i promise to be a kewl dad in the future, a son like that i'd fuck him up in no time.

Saturday, April 23, 2005

tempremental

i hate waiting for people.

heck i just hate waiting.

not to sound like a jerk with no patience, but i practically hate it when i have to wait for people to make decisions which are neither life threatening or cost millions of dollars. so why the bloody fuck do these people take so fucking long to make such an easy decision. its just fucking either yes or no answer damnit. argh.. fuckers

i'm not being rude, but it really pisses me off cause when i let them make the decision. i put the rest of my plans on hold. so that non of em will clash, and while waiting for them to say yes or no. i'd waste time which i couldve put to better use. come on fuckers, think of others too beeatch.

i dont get it, i think its became like a national habit to be procrastinators. to make matters worst, if there was a delay, bastards cant even call to inform about the delay. with excuses of no credit or what not. perhaps i was raised to be on time if not early. but its a habit u can resolve u numbnuts.

i guess i get easily ticked off by incompetent people. even in college, with group work and such. its so god damn annoying when your elected as the leader, you know ur capable of doing a good job. which u did great. but dont receive that expected gratitude by ur groupmates.

a simple 'dude, thanks alot, we wouldnt be here if it werent for ya'. would do.

aih.

Friday, April 22, 2005

wasteful.

hell fucking yea its been ages since i last updated. been so fucking caught up with things and trying to make a new layout, which i failed terribly. the sudden feeling of being so god damn html illiterate has made me neuron's haywire. thus leaving a very pissed suffieaee. though i highly doubt the number of people actually reading this.

why on earth are you here you fools? why oh whyyy?

if ur terribly bored then read on.. heh.

where was i.. ah..

html can sometimes be fucking easy or just plain shite. i'd be dead before i take up a job as an IT expert, the idea of just staring that the goddamn monitor looking at codes is just plain bollocks. warghh! im starting to hate this.

well that aint the only problem. my laptop is now currently infested with spyware. each god damn time i open explorer another window will open which leads to utter wasteful sites. and i just cant god damn find what is taking up my ram. plus, i'm too arsed to transfer each file i have just so i can reformat my pc.

yep. technology is an arse if it starts to go wrong.

fuck technology. lets start living in caves again. argh!

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playeriztic.

is there even such a word. now i'm trying to imply that i am under those category nor have i ever been labeled one. the issue here is. why did they ever created such a word. we all know what the label stands for. the utter fact is that people all around the world ARE greedy nutfucks whom if possible want more attention from just one person. so why all the god damn fuss!

we are after all humans rite you faggots. we can never be satisfied. love, lust, wealth and health. if it were possible to have more of em, then bring it onnn i say.

wait a sec. the fuck am i ranting about..

oh well. fuck it.

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i've been on holiday since yesterday and i gotta say. i'm freaking bored outta my mind here. somebody decapitate me and make my body food for the poor. cause theres so much empty space in my mind, 24 football matches could go on at the same time in different fields.

where have all the knowledge gone. ah.

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i've lost my sense in art. i cant seem to be creative enough to even photomanipulate. yep. utter shite.

i've lost my hard dedication to study. cause i hate my current lecturers.

i'm confused, am i stressed or just too free. my body seem restless.

i suddenly dont see what i'll be doing for 9 months after i graduate. wattafuck am i gonna dooooo?! its 9 god damn bloody months dammit! i can go crazy in 7 days. this is 9 months!

i think i'm loosing it.

yep i just lost it..

lost another bet. there goes 10 bucks. fucker.

i need my own sanctuary. if there even is such a place..


has the world gone crazy or have i gone crazy in the world..

hrm ....

i shall now look for answers about my life as i listen to some li[n]ckin pork.

Sunday, April 17, 2005

utter shite.

i think its been quite some time since i last updated.

i'm too lazy to ramble about my college cause it'll just bore you guys outta ur minds.

weekends are as usuall, bumming and wasting time. it came to a stage of 'no event, no update' haha. fo real y'all.

anyways. been trying to make a new layout, the design is done but i'm stuck at the html part. so maybe i'll start updating more frequently when the new layout is up. theheee.. till then byebye!

Saturday, April 09, 2005

the fucking long ass post! enjoy!

its been an extremely long week, fuck load of things happened in between. think its more than a week since my last posts. heh. guess i got caught up with things, hadnt had the time to post things up mid week. anyway, shall now swamp you guys with what happened so far.. enjoy.

lets take it from the top, shall we?

the weekend.

[wait a sec, i think i wrote something abt the weekend. here it is]

.. it been an gruesome week for me. the pile of assignments have now lessen to a few more. which i hope wont kill me anytime soon. i think i might die of stress, if it was actually possible. heh. my whole body aches from lack of sleep and lack on nutrients. havent gain anything good lately, which includes extrodinare festivities on weekends. the life of a wasteful broke wank. heh. i finished reading 2 books in a week, yep. wasteful is the word.

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after coming home at daybreak, i was happy to finally feel the soft cushion of my bed plus pillow. but before long, doing what elder sisters do best. my biggest sister sally, woke me up forcing me to be her driver. beeyotch!. i need my sleep, but after being bribed with food, reluctantly i agreed.

drove and drove, suddenly ended up in 1 utama. panda eyed, ghoulish expression. i pushed my nieces stroller around following my sis.

sally: i wanna go get some stuff, how 'bout you head on down to toys 'r' us and let her play with em toys.
me:
.. er.. okay..

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*suffieaee enters toys 'r' us with a 3 year old girl. *

honestly, i do enjoy kids company but the part where i'm left alone with a 3 year old baby girl. its.. its. a weird scenario. reluctantly, i followed her around. playign with all em small toys. like frying pans and dolls. laugh all u wank, you'd be doing this shit soon enough fags.

young couples with kids would give a weird smirk, perhaps curious of who's kid am i kidnapping. but seriously, i've had worst glares. lemme retell the tale...

.. as you all know, last june i coloured my hair blonde. ya ya, dumb blonde. shut the fuck up. so anyways. again the same scenario. me reluctantly being the driver escourting the female's of the family. my mom had to run some errands, one of which was to go to some insurance company in KL.

i was wearing jeans and a red quiksilver tshirt and my white sneakers. being the great uncle i had to hold my niece as she was still too small to be roaming about by her small petite self. i didnt know that the insurance company was a huge company, thus i kinda felt embarressed and lazy to follow my mom into the main floor of the towerlike office. the office was on the 6th floor. so i waited downstairs with my niece.

first the guard looked at me funny. but i just couldnt give a rats ass about him. pfft, just a guard. it is their job to be suspicious of everyone. then later, a whole crowd of office workers just finishing their lunch break start to enter the building. one after the other stared and glared. from head to toe.. i got a lil pissed by their remark till i saw my reflection..

.. blonde, young adult, red tshirt, jeans.. WITH a young baby..

[ they must be thinking that im some kind of an athelete or something with a kid, or some player who got caught offside. ]

gees. i still remember those glares. weird scenario. aie.

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headed back to college soon after, though my classes were canceled for the whole week because of some staff/student week. seriously, in all the times they had to have it during the peak of the semester, soon enough lecturers gonna swamp our asses with assignments with 2 days to finish it. then whine about students not performing. morons i tell ya, shouldnt waste so much time. sigh.

anyways.

monday. english day - day 1.

this semester, one o my assignments was to organize activities for english day. sounds real gay rite? well, there were all kinds of activities which included prizes like hampers. being a real sport, me and the lads joined a treasure hunt which was organized by my classmate, just to show support and get a free win. thehee!

well the treasure hunt went well at first, we took the lead in the early half of the game. we made it through 5 checkpoints outta 7 without getting penalized. [penalties given to those unable to answer questions at checkpoints]. so it was all good till we reached the 6th checkpoint, which was watched by this girl. lets just call her grotesque, well cause her face is really just plain fugly. few semesters a go, this grotesque had a fancy for my friend bash. conclusion was that, grotesque's so called love got denied as bash was already taken and .. well we'd smack him silly if he even did accept her. ee yuck. seriously.

anyways, she asked us the question but was being a real bitch doing it, making faces and shit. we still managed to answer her question but she denied us from continueing saying we only had 5 minutes to answer. we asked the previous checkpoint and they said that it was suppose to be 10 minutes. slightly pissed, we asked her again nicely to let us continue. she still insisted we do the penalty of eating some green shit with mayonaise. pissed off by her fucked up attitude, we tried negotiating but she still insisted on being the bitch. voices were raised, not wanting to slap a girl. we conceded from the game.

nab[organizer] came over later to appologise for the fucked up attitude. he said that she had planned this out, just to get even with bash. well, she succeeded in getting the biggest bitch award. fucking whore.

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tuesday. english day - day 2.

university hospital came over for a blood donation run. thus meaning, the 2nd time for me to donate blood. heh. as usuall, no problem. i was in and out in no time. while there was a few people who were real brats giving all sorts of problems. fucking pussies!

Speedmaster. thats the name of the activity i organized. yea, sounds like i ripped it off frm maxis rite. heh well, slightly different. i was elected as the leader of the group few months back and pretty much did everything. i looked for sponsors when other groups hadnt, i handled the meetings, i almost literally typed out the whole proposal myself even when its actually a group work, i design the crew tshirt heck even promotion posters. thus i thought i'd be more relaxed then the contest started.


alas, my efficient groupmates were no where to be seen even when its only an hour before the start of the event. thus, a friend and i set up the booth all by ourselves. the arangements and decorations were all done by me. yep the leader, so where the fuck was everyone else? heh if only i knew. finally just 15 minutes before the start of events only did they arrived. slowly, one by one.

i was dissapointed by the commitment given by the group. but i put that aside in hopes that everything else ran smoothly. the game started, i had time to breath. sigh. i stayed on site just to make sure everything was okay till the end.

when it was over, i gathered my things and slowly waited for the prize giving ceromony.

earlier on i was asked to be the MC for the prize giving ceremony. but i had to turn it down having sensed that things wouldnt be organized. they said that the script would be typed out, that all i need was just read it aloud. yet i only saw a small sheet of paper with scribbles. heh lucky me.

when i left the hall, i was absolutely burnt. blood donation in the morning, booth set up, handling games, packing up. sigh. yet i received no pat on the back by fellow groupmates for a job well done. shows how appreciative they are. bastards.

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wednesday. staff week.

felt the urge to go out and have fun, i thought of going down to kl to perhaps buy me a damn cellphone or sumthing. so i took my time and gather a few friends for the trip down. alas, the gate was closed and the guard had strict orders not to let any students out until evening. why? because they wanted the students to participate in the activities..

seriously, why do such things.. if it has any interest of ours then obvioulsy we'd of gone to participate but since we arent interested, we'd rather be in bed sleeping. morons. who the fuck do they take us for? school kids? bollocks.

thus, the screwed plans for the evening was replaced by a hardcore streetsoccer game. we played till it rained and still continued. heh, funny shit sliding into one another. havent played in the rain for a long long time. brought back lotsa old childhood memories.

*smiles*

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thursday. lecture this. runaway kl.

one of the activities planned during the staff week was 'student - advisor conselling' . purpose was to initiate a bond between the students and advisor via counselling session. ensuring the students have no problem and achieve excellent grades.

up my ass.

anyways, so it was my turn to meet with my advisor. i met him before couple o semesters back. so pretty much i'd know what to expect in this meeting; my ears to bleed profusely with crap advise.

i got the timetable wrong so i ended up late, the lucky fat fairie was on my side. the session before mine hasnt ended yet. i ease dropped a bit just to have a preview of whats instore for me. yap, pure shite just as expected.

when my turn came, he asked me to fill up a form which includes details of my current grade point average. which wasnt excellent but good non the less. so my 'counselling' session started. he asked me 'the scripted' questions, like what are your goals? how do you achieve them? how big is my dick?

okay maybe not the last one. all of it being stewwpid questions which i answered easily in english. at some points he made some silly assumptions about me. major ones i'd deny and the rest well, i just nodded and played along. didnt wanna waste anymore time with this idiot.

i soo wanted to be utterly sarcastic by replying his questions with;

'ohhh yes yess! *nod* your right sir *nod* hrmm.. yes *nod* yes *nod*'

or

' noooooo.. *full of expression* i wouldnt dare sir *shakes head* not mee.. defineatly not me sir.. nono.'

but by being sarcastic i couldve wasted another hour or so. when the session ended, he stated that i was doing fine but my english coulda been better. i was like pfft. my english is fucking way better than yours u bald fuck. who the fuck makes sentences like ;

'what you gonna do when your parents go to grave?'

geee i wonder what will i do? bah. moron.


i went to kl later to buy my phone. gotta love the easter break, so many europeans around. some of em uberly hawt. drools. ahha. made the whole trip to kl worth while. anways when i reached sg wang. i browsed around for cellphones, i only had like 500 ringgit. after 1 hour, i was in deep depression, all the phones here with favorable features cost 700 ringgit and above. before long i got pissed off and bought the most economical phone i saw available.

nokia 3100. colored screen, gprs enabled, polyphonic tones.

YIPPIEE!

*remembers the old phone*

nokia 6600. bigger screen, camera / video enabled, .wav tones, symbian OS

*stares at the floor*

since the phone was cheap, i opted for a nice new number since i didnt have time to retrieve my old number. thehee. me likes me new numberrr.. *snickers away..*

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friday. homecoming.

final day for staff week and as always, for each event the ending had to be something big. thus, a fucking early wake up call by the warden forcing us to head on down to the main hall. reluctantly and ghoulish like expression filled the hall.

i reached there late, unsure of what to expect but having a strong feeling that its gonna be something really stupid.

aerobics.

yep, fucking aerobics! watta helll! i woke up so damn fucking early for what? god damn aerobics! damnit, the world is soo injust!

i left for home after friday prayers. ending to a fucked up week.

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edit:

to those of you who still dont have my new no, please msg me and i'll send it to ya.

i found out that my english lecturer hates me. she marked me as immoral. biatch gonna die after this. she just declared war with me.