lets make it official

you've turned me into a romantic. cherishing each moment i have with you. understanding and forgiving, showing support no matter what. you've become a pillar of support, like family. you've watched me in my darkest hour yet still stuck to my side. deservingly, when my time for greatness comes you will surely be by myside.

a promise of loyalty, faith and unconditional love.

this is to you, dilla :)

farewell

as its already mid summer, most of the graduates of class 2008 will be heading back home.. so yesterday we had a small farewell dinner..



proud product of KMS, scholars of MARA .. congrats to all 3 of em for getting 1st class :)




the odd one out, phd mr glass structures


engineer cum photographer who's gonna get a proper beating from his dad if he turns professional




penipu paling besar di surrey haha ;p









food was just alright, portion was a tad too small for my liking.. and cus i'm not a food blogger i wont post food pictures :P bye

teet teet!

come summer and i've finally changed the header and would presumably start blogging more often. heh.

the last few months have been the pivotal points in my life. so much life changing decisions and unexpected results. i am at the hardest part of my life. fine, hardest part of my life so far.

thankfully, through this hardship i know that i have people around me who care for me and would like to see me succeed. taking it with an open heart and believing that god has a plan for everyone. i take heed that this would make me stronger, better and even wiser.


putting some plans on hold. new plans are made and hopefully they'll go smoothly. i just hope by not finishing the earlier plans that they wont be abandoned completely. :P

and now i'm tired and am too lazy to continue. hahaha. here are some pictures enjoy.









the important ones :)

revive.

its been say.. more than a month since my last post.

nay i haven't abandoned this blog. even after my long period of absence which occurs almost every year. heh.

but what you've might notice is the layout is a lil out. thats cus i'm making it wider to fit pictures and also the text size has been increase to ease the eyes when reading. since i've gotten complaints from the missus sayin its a wee bit too small.

so there.

i'll slowly revive this blog again.

something i've said probably 1000 times now.. but heh. read it or leave mate. :)

adios amigo

the gamble

'each man has his own path in life.. choose yours.'

Step up to the plate and prove your worth, I told myself back in the days of high school. 'I was a slacker with the ingredients of success', more than once have i heard that phrase and thought, perhaps its true.. perhaps its just some optimistic lie told by people to make you feel better.

So i took the challenge, heed my calling and did alright, continued and strived harder and still it looked like my path in life was getting clearer and more vivid.

I was thrilled.

For the better part of my life, I felt that I had a reason to be apart of this life. I had a role to play. I wanted more.. a bigger role, which also included more responsibility.

Perhaps maturity brought responsibility with it.

Or maybe, experience brought maturity and responsibility was just something that tagged along.

But i was now responsible for my life and future. Which perhaps included a wife and family in the picture, a house and the financial burden to support all those.

Lets narrow it down abit.

I am responsible for my future.

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Taking the plunge into so called greatness, I challenged myself in an arena which most said was difficult; yet I knew my worth (or perhaps i was over optimistic?) and knew i can make something work.

Plummeting head first into a sea of shark-like challenges, I fought vigilantly and was winning part of the fight. Yet as time passed, it seemed that those fights have left bruises and as it carried on. I seem to be faltering..

Like swimming in the deep cold sea and slowly your muscles starts to cramp, but your life depended on you staying a float. You fight for your life knowing that somewhere some how you'll survive. Holding on to whatevers left, distant memories of your family become your life jacket.

But as the challenges never fade, their like sharks who come every now and then and takes chunks from you.

Time passes and even with the life jacket, your body have lost its limbs.

I've pushed myself so hard knowing that I am worth more than all this.

Even with all the suffering, I was optimistic, thinking that with all this hardship there will come a day of greatness. A day where i say to myself that 'all that was worth it'

But as reality took my final limb.

I perish.

I have failed.

I am sorry.

Even if i survive this, whatever that is left of me is just scraps.

This is my darkest moment and i see not of the light at the end of the tunnel.

the last few hurdles

today marks the 5th maybe 6th day i've watched the sunrise.

as my sleeping habits are completely destroyed by the necessity of staying up and finishing up my work, today i feel slightly at ease. i've just submitted my final project report and though its not my best work; nay, i reckon its one of the worst, okay best of worst works i've done.

the burden is slightly off on one shoulder.

yet on the other shoulder the burden of exams are still weighing me down.

receiving an email earlier on today had my heart jumping for a while before it straight into the abyss.

i've qualified for the 2nd interview from a good company but they've also clearly mentioned that the requirements are a bare minimum of 2nd upper degree.

harharhar.

so anyways, after ranting left and right. everyone seemed optimistic that it was not an impossible act. i just needed to work hard.

soo cliche..

but it is the truth.

so here i am, watching another sunrise.. finishing up my revision for today, well yesterdays. i dont know whats gonna happen, part of me is scared to death, the other is just relieved that everything is finally coming to an end.

oh and i just checked my report plagiarism percentage; its gone from 7% to 12%!

stewpid software, counting the table of content and what not as well. hah. cant be arsed to change anything anymore.

plus i just realized that i forgot to edit something. hahahhaa. it clearly showed that i used a template for my report. :D just 1 line though

oh well.